april 12 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
today was disappointing for me I weighed myself and realized that I gained weight. To be honest I haven't weighed my self in awhile. I feel discouraged. I know it is harder for me to lose weight because of my injury. But it is frusturating that I am gaining weight. I weigh 283 pounds that is so embarrassing. It is the most I have ever weighed. I wish I can get myself to stop orering out. I don't know what is wrong with me I know that it is bad but I still do it. I feel so depressed I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I don't want to live like this anymore.
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I can't add anything to the great advice and caring already given here. I am an amputee and in a wheelchair and its funny but my weight went up to 360 and I was very very happy when it dropped down to 283lbs! I am further to 269 now but that is definitely Not the most you could weigh! You have started on program here and it will get better. Hang in and don't give up on yourself
IKacey co-leader of the Chair Exercise Team
1898 days ago
Thanks for all of the suggestions everyone. I will let you know what I come up with. hope every one I s having a great weekend
1898 days ago
First of all - don't let the weight gain bother you. It should be expected. Remember - you've been injured and you are recovering. There is no way you are going to lose weight when you cannot get up and get moving. However, you can try to do some things to help yourself not gain too much – things you can do to keep yourself active. If you asked me – now is the time to put that scale away until you are done healing – it truly serves no purpose except to shame you when you cannot change your situation. Put it away – say goodbye – and tell it you will come back after some time, once you get a chance to take care of yourself.
You have to understand where you are right now – and you need to build more reasonable expectations for yourself before you give up completely. I mean – you can’t exercise – then you feel bad that you aren’t losing weight – then you can’t exercise because you lack motivation because you feel bad. It is a vicious cycle. Here is what I would suggest . . .
You know what you cannot do – you are surrounded by it – reminded by it every day. It can get you down - it would get me down. However, there are things you can do. So, what I would suggest is that you sit down and take the time to make a list of all of the things you can do differently – starting today – to feel like you CAN SUCCEED. The list doesn’t have to include world-changing things – but things that you can do every day or every week that can help you. What types of things? Things like:
(1) find one way to show myself that I am valuable – I don’t care if you don’t believe it – do something that shows you that YOU value who you are. Over time - you will start to believe it - but at first, it can be hard. Think of it as telling another person how you care for them - you would do it and it would come easily. It can be something as simple as taking care of yourself – writing yourself a positive note – make yourself a nice treat (tea, cocoa, something like that) – soak in a warm bath (if you can).
(2) chair exercises (whether you love them or not – do them because they are good for you – because they will help – and because you deserve to be healthy). Now, I know you are in pain - so if you are in too much pain, give yourself an excuse to rest. However, if you are having a pretty pain-free day, try your best. Not everyone loves exercise – mind you – or at least, they may even exercise when they don’t feel like it (because it is too hard or because they are tired). However, we do it because it is good for us – and we deserve to be healthy. You do too.
(3) eat healthier – you owe it to yourself to put good food into your body. While fast food may taste good – seem cheaper and easier – it is seriously going to affect your health. I also used to eat it when I was younger – but over time I slowly weaned myself from it. Now, I can’t stand it – and usually avoid it at all costs. I also weaned myself from soda. I thought I was doing good when I started drinking diet – but in the end, I have learned too much and I avoid soda at ALL COSTS. My body deserves better – and so does your body. So, make new goals – drink only 3 sodas a week – eat out only once – whatever you CAN do to help yourself get better.
(4) journal. I would recommend this as a way for you to deal with your feelings. There is a lot going on – a lot that you are dealing with. This would be a good way you to deal with those emotions in a meaningful way. Write poetry? Write a poem about what you are feeling. You can actually just write a daily journal entry just talking through what you are going through that day. Use it as a way to express your feelings – so they aren’t all bottled up inside. It won’t cure anything – but it will help.
(5) find someone that can help. Look – this is your health – your life. Don’t give up! If you find one counselor that doesn’t help – hunt down another one – then another. Just try your best – but don’t give up! You have to do what is right for you – and only you can fight – to the end – for what you need.
You don't have to use these suggestions - come up with your own. The point is – these are just examples – but instead of using your time to find all the reasons you don’t feel good – spend that time finding reasons you can and will feel better. Make a plan and start making little changes here and there. Over time – you will find that you can do a lot more to change your situation than you thought you could. YOU CAN DO THIS – I know you can. It will not be easy – but at the end of the road you will truly realize that you were a lot stronger and waaaaay more wonderful than you ever realized.
PS: I’d love to hear what you come up with – what changes you think you can make to improve life now – despite the injury. I’d love to hear your progress too. I’m here for you – and so are a lot of other people. Just take that first step.
1899 days ago
Comment edited on: 4/12/2013 11:32:38 PM
I am not the cook in my family, my husband is, and I know that I am tempted all the time to get takeout. I usually get something out once a week, but the other nights (since husband works most nights) I will do some easy things, like some whole wheat pasta, frozen vegetables, salads, quesadillas w/ veggies and cheese... it's not exactly diet food, but it's better calorically and otherwise than takeout from a restaurant. So maybe you could make a list of thing you like that you can make - easy things! And maybe once you're not eating so much takeout you'll start to feel better about other things. Your weight IS NOT who you are. You are a valuable person made by God, full of possibility. Don't give up!
1899 days ago
I really liked Chantal's suggestions, Tanya :) How would it be to plan part - or even all - of your day the night before? It doesn't have to be detailed planning, either - just sitting down and making a list of some of the things you love to do and some of the tasks you need to get done. And you won't even have to DO them all - they're just a list, and the point of it is, you can cross off the different items as you get them done. It will, I think, bring you a sense of both getting things done (and so moving ahead) and taking good care of yourself by identifying, and doing, some of your favorite activities.
If you can gradually get yourself weaned away from ordering out, it would make losing weight much easier, too. Take a look at this link to get an idea of how to order out without doing as much damage to your diet:
It would be helpful to have a nice supply of good, fresh produce on hand. We need fresh fruits and veggies not just for health's sake, but to stay nice and full. I will always have a huge, huge appetite, and it is not satisfied with small portions. But I make up for that by eating lots of fruits and vegetables, and I feel so much better now. It also helps to drink all the non-caloric beverages you want.
I promise you that for every day you keep plugging away and concentrating on YOU and YOUR health, you'll feel physically - and emotionally - better, and you will lose weight, too!
1899 days ago
ok let's shake things up a bit then. you gotta get outta this vicious circle.
wake up, get ready for a hot day! when you brush your teeth and get yourself ready for the day, give yourself a nice pep talk. you're beautiful, valuable, cherished!
get yourself a nice breakfast, maybe an open sandwich and a smoothie with some coffee, then get moving. get some exercise, out in the fresh air if you can.
choose your lunch wisely, maybe chicken or fish with rice and vegetables...?
dinner lightly, emphasis on protein, very low carb. then no more eating for the day.
three meals, every 5 hours, of about 500 calories each.
and drink lots of water before & after meals!
what kinds of things give you pleasure? even the little things, they are really the big things when you think of it.
fight gravity! smile, i'm thinking of you!
1899 days ago
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