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Broken Heart.....

Friday, April 12, 2013

Last Friday - Wayne left for Tucson - April 5th. He had met a guy through the internet, they share the same interests for 'viewing the night sky' and he was so excited to have a Spring Break. He would be back April 16th...in time for his next doctor appointment. He has had a miserable year with his back and he finally got approved for his Spinal Chord Stimulator. More than ready to get his life back on track again!

Wayne and I had our first date - January 1977. We have traveled the world together, been best friends, supported each other through many of life's ups and downs.....he is truly the Love of my Life!!

Tonight I was sitting in my room reading, when Wayne's brother & SIL came knocking on my door. What a wonderful surprise.....

Theo grabbed a chair to sit beside me....she took my hand and said, "I'm so sorry.....Wayne died this morning."


Wayne collapsed at 8:30am and died on the way to the hospital. We don't know what happened as Arizona does not do autopsies. I'm stunned....in shock.....how can this be?

To bring him back, it would cost $20,000....so he will be cremated and his remains will be flown back. According to the doctors at the Tucson hospital - his drivers license had eye donor, so part of him will live on towards helping another person to see. Perhaps that person will come to love the night sky as much as Wayne enjoyed it.

Just when I thought my life couldn't get any worse........it did........

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    I was thinking about you this morning, wondering how you had been... I am so sorry to read this terrible news! I really hope you have special people to help you through this very hard time. Please take good care of yourself.
    2124 days ago
    Oh Annie!! I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you knowing this loss is leaving you with a huge hole in your heart! I know how much you and Wayne meant to each other and the plans you have had together. God bless you with the strength and comfort you need as you go through this very difficult time. What a wonderful tribute to Wayne and your love for him!!!
    Blessings, love and hugs,

    2138 days ago
    Dear Annie,

    What a terrible tragedy for you! My prayer is that Wayne was able to see the beautiful heavens as his last vision. If I lived closer, I would be there, right by your side, giving whatever comfort I could. But alas, that is not possible. So I am sending prayers and love to you, every minute of the day and night. My heart is breaking for you, my friend.

    Sandy emoticon
    2138 days ago
    There are no words to express how sorry I am to hear of your loss.


    Bev Anne
    2139 days ago
    Oh dear God. Annie, my sweet friend....I'm so sorry. So very sorry.
    2139 days ago
    Annie, God's peace for you and all other who loved Wayne. I am sure you made Wayne very happy. When the grief is over, and it does take a while, you will once again smile. You will also cry at the happy times. When the tears come just let them flow. As time goes by, the tears will come, but the crying will last for shorter periods of time, this is by God's grace and the peace of knowing and having loved. Know you and Wayne will be together again, and that will be on God's time schedule. Love you Annie and I wish you peace.
    2139 days ago
    emoticon and prayers.
    2139 days ago
  • ELLIE381
    I am so sorry to hear this Annie! emoticon
    2140 days ago
    Oh, Annie, I'm so sorry. I hope you are getting the support you need at your assisted living home. Please know that all of us are standing beside you and sending you our prayers and positive thoughts.

    Margaret emoticon
    2140 days ago
    Oh Annie, my heart is so heavy... I am so so very sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers. Please come here & vent when you need to. We will be here for you. emoticon
    2140 days ago
    You will be in my prayers. May God grant you comfort and peace in your time of sorrow. I hope you have many close friends close by who will surround you with support.
    2140 days ago
    Annie, I am so sorry to hear this. I, too, suffered an unexpected loss (my first husband) several years ago. Just remember life goes on, and his memories will keep you company until you are strong enough to carry on alone. Many blessings emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2140 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/12/2013 7:35:30 PM
    Praying for you Annie. (((HUGS)))
    2140 days ago
    Annie...any loss is difficult but to come so unexpectedly only adds to the shock. May your wonderful memories help sustain you at this time.
    2140 days ago
  • CRICKET836
    So sorry for your loss. (((Thoughts and Prayers)))
    2140 days ago
  • _KATHY
    I'm so sorry Annie! emoticon
    2140 days ago
    May God hold you in the palm of His Hand, during this very difficult time. Though your loss is tragic and premature, I pray that you grieve appropriately and be able to continue facing every day. emoticon
    2140 days ago
    I am so sorry for your tremendous loss! Just know that you have lots of Sparkfriends that love you & offer support.
    2140 days ago
    My dear friend Gail asked for prayer for you. I offer them and healing mantra as well, as you struggle through this time of deep grief and loss.

    In the midst of your broken heart --

    "Refuse to fall down. If you cannot refuse to fall down, refuse to stay down. If you cannot refuse to stay down, lift your heart toward heaven, and like a hungry beggar, ask that it be filled, and it will be filled. You may be pushed down. You may be kept from rising. But no one can keep you from lifting your heart toward heaven."
    -- Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Est├ęs
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    2140 days ago
  • LADYBUG1943
    My heart goes out to you right now. I can't imagine the blow to you this must be, Praying that you have a local support team to be with you at this time. Words fail....

    2140 days ago
    I'm so sorry for you! This is truly a blow. Take care.
    2140 days ago
    Oh my goodness, what a shock! I can tell of your deep feelings for Wayne by the way your heart is breaking. That's a sign of a strong bond - hold on to his memory and go forward as he would want you to. (((HUGS))).
    2140 days ago
    2140 days ago
    So sorry, this is devastating, and I think not knowing the reason is just torture for you. Hugs x
    2141 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about Wayne. He will be with you in spirit. Just take a day at a time!
    2141 days ago
  • BLUES15
    May you have the strength to handle what life has thrown at you.
    2141 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    emoticon Your blog is a beautiful tribute to Wayne. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    2141 days ago
    My heart goes out to you in your time of loss. May you be blessed with the strength to handle your grief with faith and grace. My husband and I have been together since 1974. I can only imagine how devastated I would be.
    2141 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/12/2013 1:48:33 AM
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