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Thursday, April 11, 2013

It's been at least a weeks since I last logged my food, done any fitness aside from my 2 classes of dog training over last weekend and my weigh in is tomorrow. I feel failure coming on strong. I'm especially emotional right now probably due to my period STILL not here, but should be. I think my hormones are just being stupid ridiculous.

Last week, a friend of mine came to stay with us. Of course, we are super lazy together. I'm not one to want to work out in front of anyone and I certainly don't have the energy to get up earlier in the morning to do it knowing everyone is sleeping and I could be too... It might change once our fitness space is done in the basement... It's all under very slow construction...

Anywho, we didn't eat stupidly, but I certainly didn't track anything the whole time she was here, which was like 5 days... I gained 2lbs back too from last week. emoticon I know it's no ones fault but my own. I accept that, and again for this week... It's my fault. I'm lazy and I know it. I'm depressed and I have been told and am trying to deal with it. I try to keep a fairly peppy attitude, but today, I feel like nothing but failure.

I've had a very frustrating evening...I spent all afternoon reorganizing 2 rooms and a closet, doing dinner and then the dog comes in with mucky feet not only on the floors I washed yesterday, but all up the stairs and through the hallway... emoticon This is thanks to my husband being lazy enough to ask our youngest daughter to let the dog in... ugh!

The kids didn't get around to doing their dishes after dinner because my husband wanted to watch a show, but I can't complain too much about that since he opted to do it so I didn't. He's starting to be more helpful around the home since we talked about 'What Mom Needs' and has agreed that it isn't much for him to just call a laundry day on the weekend and it gets done!

Right now, I am livid since my dog nipped my calf. It was like a very hard, painful pinch that bruised instantly and bumped over like a super mosquito bite. He is trying to rebel against the training we have been doing. Once frustration hits me, I'm done. I have to stop. I know that if I continue in a frustrated state, my dog will feel it and mirror those emotions...

So, yes, I've had a crappy afternoon and my dog is in time out, though I wish I could just let him off since he's been on hands free all day. I've scrounged up pennies just for my husband to go get cheesecake. Will I eat it? Most definitely. So long as I'm not already in bed after my coffee and Bailey's.

Time to get on track again...
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    Today is a brand new day - I hope it is much better than yesterday! Hang in there!
    1837 days ago
    I've been wondering where you've been! Just keep pushing, it can only get better, right?
    1837 days ago
  • MOM_OF_1
    Don't beat yourself up, yesterday is in the tomb and today is in the womb! Just pick up where you left off & move on... By putting one foot in front of the other you are choosing to not give up... I pray tomorrow will be a better day for you friend, hang in there....

    1837 days ago
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