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Thursday, April 11, 2013

Spent a while cleaning up more of the mess from the kitchen fire last night, then had class, then did Dance Central... let A pick the song(s) at one point and ended up doing Oppan Gangnam Style (she decided she wanted that one twice in a row). It is the only song I gold starred. I had never done that one before and still gold stared it both times. Lots of sweaty though lol

And now on to when it rains it pours...
This morning I almost forgot my phone, ran back in the house for it and to see how much time I had to make my bus I unlocked my phone. I had a message notice so thinking my husband had left me one for the morning (which he sometimes does when I go to sleep before him) I checked it. Nope. A message from my mother. They think my grandmother has lymphoma. She will likely start chemo in 2 weeks or so. This is the grandmother that is only 73 and has already had a quadruple by-pass. She is only 7 years older than my father so then on top of worrying about her it makes me wonder about him too. Both of them are far away (South Carolina and Nevada respectively) from me... *sigh*
This is totally going to sound selfish but this whole year so far has been crap. Before spring semester started I just had this I don't want to do this right now feeling but pushed on thinking that it was burnout from keeping up so many classes plus work for so many semesters in a row (including summer). Now I'm not so sure. D was in the hospital, then he had the med allergy, K's legal issues, G's testing, the kitchen fire, my grandmother's health, plus all the smaller things that just can't seem to go right this term... Seems like that is why I didn't want to do this set of classes right now. And the fact there is still snow and single digits isn't helping. And before anyone says 'god won't give you more than you can handle' or 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' Save It. Don't Want To Hear It. Not Helpful. and I believe both of those phrases to be full of crap.

Today's game plan:
psych reply, math
dinner ; something with ham or pulled pork
costco trip *woohoo foodsaver*
dance central and/or hoopnotica
kitchen clean up
put up laundry
cookies if the kitchen is clean enough
etc... to be continued

Edit: Surgery in the next 2 weeks for one side then chemo for the other...
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