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Today's kick in the Butt

Thursday, April 11, 2013

I'm really trying with this. Yes, I'm still fighting off the slump being laid off on Tuesday has causes. Today I'm realizing I just take rejection far too personally. It honestly almost destroys me. Every time.

I know I have some things to work on, but this is a big part of what I'm dealing with right now.

Despite what I'm struggling with, I still have a choice. It's more difficult to make the choice today, yes. But I didn't yesterday and look what happened. I got NOTHING done, ate too much and didn't move at all.


I got on the scale yesterday and was down under 230lbs for the first time in a very long time. I don't want to loose that momentum because I'm feeling a little pouty. Besides, getting out and moving will help break this pouty mood.

I have no "have to's" today. I have no "must do's". I'm going to ignore any "should do's" that come into my mind and do for me today. Period.

I want to be home for the courier today. If I want to do that, I'd better go running soon. I can get my run in and be back home early enough to catch any deliveries that come in today.

Gotta go. time to get my shoes on. See y'all later!

Not sure why, but I just couldn't do it. I did go out and went for just over a mile. However, I was not able to finish a training run. My heart is really REALLY heavy today. It's weighing me down. I didn't even fully realize how bad it is. Wow.

Guess I've got more work to do to get back on track.
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    Only realising you can CHOOSE to do something today to the right direction is a progress. You already made the first step to get your shoes on and go out. Something is better than nothing. And that's a start. No matter the results. YOU DID IT! And I am sure tomorrow you will do it again and it will get better. It is not easy when you feel down. But don't let it drag you back. Move forward because after you reach the bottom then the only way is UP!
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    1895 days ago
  • FIT4MEIN2013
    This was a good blog! I can tell you have been doing a lot of soul-searching which will pay off. You can do this!
    1895 days ago
    You can turn this around - Instead of looking at the fact you didn't get as much of a run as you were planning, CELEBRATE the fact you got a MILE run done. Be kinder and gentler to yourself. I am so sorry about the layoff - I am sure you will find something else before too long. Good luck and for now do the best you can while you wait for that PERFECT new window to open for your future
    1895 days ago
    Nice blog - sorry about the layoff - usually those things happen for a good reason and you will come out on top and in a much better place - a year from now you will probably say "why did I stay at that lame job for so long anyways.?"
    1895 days ago
    It may not have been what you expected of yourself, but you did make it out to try for a run. That in itself is an accomplishment considering how you're feeling. If you don't do journaling, you might consider trying. Sometimes just getting all the feelings out takes some of the pressure off you.
    1895 days ago
    Sorry you're having a rough time, but be proud of yourself for getting out there for your run!! Even if it wasn't as far as you would have hoped, you still did it!!. Do it again tomorrow and you just might find yourself going in the right direction. Big hugs!!

    1895 days ago
    Sorry you are feeling down.. but think about it this way... at least you did get out and do SOMETHING... that is better than not going out at all! Hope your tomorrow is better! Have a great day!

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