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Stress - obviously not handling it well

Thursday, April 11, 2013

I didn't realize how much I've let things slip until recently. I lost my cool at work. While most of my points were valid, I didn't handle it well at all.

The last week or so, I've been doing a lot of thinking.

On the down side:
I haven't been happy.
I am frustrated with a number of work issues.
I do have a lot on my plate at work, particularly with this one large project that I am heading.
I'm not devoting the resources I need to for the CF walk on May 25.
Its been ages since I had my daily water intake up to 8 cups.
I've slacked on some of my exercise classes.
My weight is almost back to where I started.
I know I've been eating poorly - I can feel it.
I'm drinking more soda again, even though I can tell it makes me feel bad.

On the up side:
I am still making it to some of my exercise classes.
I'm about to finish a crafting project for my husband that I started 2 years ago.
Said project is coming out really well!
I'm excited about some craft purchases I've made recently (waiting for them to ship) that should allow me to make some things to sell to raise money and awareness for CF.
With some family and friends going through rough spells, I know my problems are small potatoes.
The week I spent with my sister - I only had 2 sips of Sprint - no other soda that whole week.

I did have a great visit with my sister and her family. Both my niece and nephew started crying when they had to drop me off at the airport. I left the night before they left, so our time was growing short, but it was still a tear jerker at the airport. We went to lots of different beaches on Kauai, many with a vertical hike to get to. I'm glad I had been doing my Zumba before that trip!

Next year I'll have been at the same "company" for 15 years. When I started, I never thought I would want to start over. Recent stresses have me contemplating it, but ultimately I know I won't. I have too much invested here. But I have been thinking about it.

I feel like I have lost control of things. I'm off on my water, off on my exercise (and it doesn't help that I misplaced by Jazzercise card before my trip), and stressed on a number of fronts.

I need to get better organized. You know I just realized as I was typing this that another thing that has changed recently was my housekeeper moved back to the mainland. I hadn't bothered to find a new one, since I had made some progress on the home front, and felt I could let that slide for now. I definitely haven't been keeping up with the house cleaning that would be done by a housekeeper, but its not like we live in a pigsty. But I think having her come and clean was helping me to focus on getting other things done. It also forced me to keep a better schedule. Perhaps I need to find someone to help on that. At least that would be one less thing to worry about. Of course there is the stress with finding someone new! LOL!

I'm also bummed that I volunteered to do something for work this coming Saturday. I'll get comp time hours that I can use later on, which is good. But after I committed to that, I learned there was a Zumbathon going on that morning, so I'm bummed that I can't do that. I always end up hearing about Zumbathons after the fact. I know the instructor I've been going to on Mondays goes to and organizes a bunch of Zumbathons - I have to let her know to let me know about them. And any of you Hawaii SP out there reading this - if you hear about any Zumbathons - let me know! :)

That about sums things up for me right now. Aside from my work thing Saturday morning, when I finish this night shift, I'll be off for a week. Time to re-focus.
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    I am cheering you on.....
    1866 days ago
    Hi dear spark friend!
    First of all - you are not alone, and I want to give you some virtual support across the spark-o-sphere...
    emoticon emoticon
    Sorry to hear about the work stress. That can be so hard. 15 years is a long time... I will keep you in my prayers for things to improve / smooth out there.
    This is a great blog - writing it down in helpful, as the first step to making any needed adjustments in life is to identify what you want/need to change.
    And in reading your blog, it seems it is a case of "a little here and a little there"... which we can ALL fall prey to so easily.
    Like I always tell myself, it is the small, consistent, "correct" / "good" choices that lead to our success and progress in the right direction.
    Therefore, it is the opposite that lands us where we don't really want to be!
    So start with one thing to get back on track with for now. Commit to it and commit to yourself, and feel the success. Maybe drinking your water is a good one. Sounds like you have a LOT on your plate. And remember that just having taken vacation factors in, too - we never really factor in the 'stress' of that as it relates to our routine, sleep patterns, etc., which are so important as we are trying to stay with a "plan".
    emoticon hang in there - you can do it!!

    Regarding the housekeeper - same thing happened to me recently, and same feelings as you have!! Exactly! You wrote my words emoticon

    Okay, I need to run, but wanted to say hi.
    Miss you.
    We both need to get back to zumba... it's hard sometimes...
    best of luck with your CF walk.

    1869 days ago
    Sounds like writing this blog has helped you identify the stresses you are going through. Enjoy your time off and think of it as renewing yourself.
    1869 days ago
    enjoy your time off. and good luck. emoticon
    1869 days ago
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