Jumping and I do not get along

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

One setback should not derail me or erase all of the hard work I do during my workout. I know this. I hear the words in my head, understand them ... and then ignore them.

This morning, one of the first exercises we did in class was to jump with both feet onto a gymnastics landing mat. This big cushy mat is only 8 inches high. I really dislike jumping (it's hard! and it makes me tired immediately!), so I know it's something I need to work on consistently so I can improve. I've been jumping rope more often (but not regularly) and we do jump squats all the time, but this is different. This is jumping from the floor onto another object.

I know box jumps are in my future. And that scares me! I know that this simple exercise is training for that bigger and better exercise down the road. So logically I know that I need to START with things like this to get there. But in the moment, when I'm trying to jump onto this mat and I fall over onto all fours instead, over and over, it's tough to remember that. I saw some of the other girls struggle with this, too, so I know it's not easy. And I don't expect that I will do everything right the first time. I'm all for learning from my mistakes. It's the *feeling* of failure I don't like.

This ties in with my goal of being nicer to myself. When I feel crappy like this, I usually let it snowball into a giant mess of negativity aimed right at myself. But that doesn't do me any good. It doesn't help me in any way! It throws me off track, distracts me from what's coming, and takes up way too much of my time. I have stuff to do!

Also, lately I've been mentally erasing all of the work I do in Kaia classes - and that needs to stop! The exercises we do are designed for high reps in a couple of minutes before moving on to the next set or round. I can go hard for 45 seconds, but if I get tired, I will march in place for seriously like 1-2 seconds and then jump back in. But at the end of the workout, I basically tell myself that I didn't really do the exercise. It didn't count because I had to stop or slow down or just do the squats but not the arms for a couple of reps. Sometimes I go home and repeat some of the ones I missed to make up for the few seconds I missed in class. Anyway, It's really not fair to myself to think that way. I want to get better so that I don't have to rest during a set, and I think I will. But discounting all of my work is not going to help me get there.

So, instead of focusing on my inability to jump onto this mat, I'll focus on the good things I did during my workout instead. Like grabbing a heavier medicine ball during an exercise. And making my weighted squats tougher when the deadlifts were hurting my back. And keeping my feet moving even when the rest of me wanted to drop!

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    Your workout sounds crazy intense! I would feel impressed with myself just for going back after one session! emoticon You should be so proud of yourself, and think how awesome it will feel when you are able to go a whole set without that 1-2 second break. Sounds like you'll be there in no time! emoticon
    1836 days ago
    I can totally relate! Jumping is one of my least favorite ways to exercise and I'm no good at telling myself when I've done a great job. It's something I need to work on too. I am good, however, at letting my friends know when they do a great job and you are amazing!
    1836 days ago
  • FIREFLY413
    I dream of the day that I'm so dedicated to fitness that I can even write an entry like this. Even knowing what you need to work on, what you're good at, different exercises you do at different levels, the fact that you KNOW all that about yourself because you're in there DOING it regularly. . . that's huge!
    1836 days ago
    I know how you feel. I have those thoughts, too. Especially about not "really" working out because I didn't do all the reps or I had to take a breather. It's hard to not be so hard on oneself. As humans we all desire perfection, but as humans we are far from (and never will be) perfect. I guess it can be a motivation. I know as you go along on this journey that your thoughts will change and your perspectives will shift. In the meantime, don't be so hard on yourself. Be proud of the fact that you are doing everything you can to keep yourself as healthy as possible. Because you really are an amazing woman and you are doing wonderful things for yourself.
    1836 days ago
    I know what you mean about getting tired easily with those kind of exercises. If you can only go for 30 seconds or 45 seconds that's fine! Give it your best, don't give up, and you will improve with time! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1836 days ago
    I love jumping :) but I used to hate it. I started liking it when I got better!

    That is sad that you sometimes think things don't count. I never thought of it that way. It's totally not true. If you give 100% effort- then it COUNTS! The only time it doesn't count is if you give up and don't try.
    1836 days ago
  • JORDAN1019
    Wow! You're amazing just for being there doing killer workouts no matter if you take a 1-2 second break. I thought I was the only one with a fear of box jumps, but it's great that they start off with jumping on a soft mat... Can't wait to see hear about you making those box jumps. emoticon
    1836 days ago
    Great job of shifting your focus! What you do does matter. Think of how you will feel, after weeks of having to rest, when you notice you need fewer or shorter rests? The commitment and work pay off! emoticon
    1836 days ago
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