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Taking Up Space (With Photos)

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Whoa, it's been a while! Just a quick check in. My workouts and unprocessed eating have been going well. I feel like I'm very well able to practice moderation. A slice of pizza or a scoop of ice cream isn't going to make or break me and I'm loving it.

I also started a new workout program. I'm in the first week. It's by Nia Shanks of Lift Like a Girl fame. It's a fifteen week lifting program. GETTIN SWOLE WITH IT.

I'm on a mission of self-acceptance, of not needing to fix my "flaws" but learning that I have none. I have a body. A good one. A strong one. One that my husband really really likes. And you better believe I've got cellulite and extra fat and rolls and muscles and legs that I only shave when I really have to. This body is mine. I work hard because I love it. Not because I hate it.

I'm going to continue to strength train. And my muscles are going to grow and build and you better believe I'm going to take up space. I am not going to disappear. I'm not going to diminish. I am going to grow and I am going to own the space I inhabit.

See those sleepy eyes? No makeup? Wide hips? Those are MINE.

Cellulite? Strong tummy? KILLER QUADS? All mine.

Dat butt. It takes up SPACE. It will never be small. I will always have fat deposits on the backs of my thighs. My butt will never fit into a bikini bottom. But it's mine. I love it. It is killer in some jeans. And my hubby sure does think it's great.

That back? MINE. Strong. Broad. Muscular. All mine.

I OWN the space I use. Today I feel strong. Tomorrow I might feel a little insecure. But it's a battle I will win. My body does not look like a fitspo image. That's okay. Most of us don't. And comparison is absolutely the thief of joy. I'm done with that. I will OWN my space.
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    I love Nia Shanks Lift Like Girl workouts.
    1139 days ago
    "I will OWN my space." Love that phrase...and gotta admit I'm still a long way off from truthfully feeling and acting this way! Thank you for putting words to a goal I have for myself!

    1822 days ago
    You look amazing...and I am hearing that you completely accept and appreciate yourself. Atta girl! You're a strong and beautiful woman! Hope you're having a balanced and happy week! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
    1868 days ago
    Girl all I can say is I love you! Not in "that" way...hehehe but in the way that when ever I read your blogs I smile, laugh or just want to hug you!!! emoticon

    You are amazing and I'm SO proud of you for posting this blog. I know that you are always "a work in progress", however you make a great point that no matter what we have to work on we still need to take ownership of what we are today, at this moment. I think that you look fantastic and would kill to have your strong abs and back....and the BEST part is that I'm working on that and one day I too will have these things. You are my weight lifting motivation, and you help to push me beyond what I think I can do. Keep up all your hard work and keep looking in the mirror and loving who you are and all your space. emoticon
    1896 days ago
  • BAKER1009
    You look great Jolene! I love the shot of your back...awesome!
    I know this is a battle you've been fighting a while now and you continue to WIN! You seriously ROCK!! Keep it up!

    1896 days ago
    Excellent blog with fabulous words. Thanks for sharing. Congrats on your journey to self acceptance.
    1897 days ago
    yes! :-) own it! :-)
    1897 days ago
    Here's my secret: I don't even WANT to look like a fitspo image. Call me crazy, but in the world I inhabit (the real world) women are SUPPOSED to have some bodily fat. It's healthy, it keeps us warm, it nourishes our babies and it LOOKS GOOD. Am I nuts? I think you look bangin'. And you own it which is a million times hotter than insecurity in any body. emoticon
    1897 days ago
  • HILLARY0803
    Awesome blog! Thanks for reminding me what a "healthy" body image is! It is easy to forget when you are bombarded with unrealistic images everywhere you turn.
    1897 days ago
    what a wonderful blog, you just turned my whole day around!!!
    1897 days ago
  • NEWSGIRL2177
    I super love this! You look and sound STRONG!
    1897 days ago
    1897 days ago
    Damnnnnn girl, you look fit & STRONG! Way to go!!!!!!!
    1897 days ago
    I clicked on your blog when I noticed that pmrunner had commented on it.

    Jolene? We just saw that on a license plate and I told my granddaughter it was almost what we named her mom. DH is Joe and I’m Eileen. (We settled on Jeanne)

    I’m 40 years older than you, but I love the similarities.
    We have the same body type, carry our weight in the same places and have the same attitude about it. I’ve been married to DH for 45 years so he’s likes me just fine.
    I’ve got great tummy muscles and a doctor once told me that I have “very well developed quadriceps.” LOL

    One thing more – I love sci-fi and technology – an old nerd here.

    1897 days ago
    This is such an incredible blog! Thank you for putting it all out there and owning it! Your message is definitely one I needed to hear, as I've been or a more downward kick lately, and need some positive reinforcement.
    1897 days ago
    LOVE this! Thank you for sharing this.
    1897 days ago
    Love the blog and the positive attitude!
    1897 days ago
    This was the perfect blog for me to read today. You had many good points .. killer back by the way! I'd die for one that looked that killer, lol. Keep it strong girl!! emoticon
    1897 days ago
    I would kill to look as good as you. I see no wide areas anywhere. Is it a size 0? Probably not. You look like a very healthy young woman who's husband is awsome to recognize what he has. Keep up the good work and I'm really proud of the fact you recognize how truly great you look. emoticon
    1897 days ago
    I love Nia Shanks. And I always say the same thing- I work out because I love my body!
    1897 days ago
  • LADYJ6942
    Woo hoo, I love it. We all need to take note of loving and owning our bodies and space. Like I tell my husband, your body has never failed you despite the challenges you've thrown at it and that means its worth fighting to improve!

    Good luck
    1897 days ago
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