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A Steaming Cup of Honesty!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

First of all I would like to thank everyone for all the prayers and support for me, my husband's family and mostly for my SIL. She is having some good days but lots of bad days. Thank you for keeping her in your prayers.

Okay so to the Cup of Honesty. emoticon I think I have been pretty open about my journey and shared the good times and the bad times. Today I am going to share the Big Bad Ugly!

Last week, I weighed in on Wednesday and low and behold, I was back at my starting weight. I am coming up on my emoticon next month and I certainly didn't want to be back at my start weight. That isn't what we are here for! I mean 6 months ago, I was at a 40+ pound weight loss! Now I am looking at the same place I was a year ago. Now I am looking in the mirror emoticon and seeing the Susan with the round swollen face. I am looking at the Susan that can't get into her clothes that she worked so hard to get into. I am looking at a tired and draggin' butt Susan.

So what am I going to do about it? Am I just going to go with the flow and keep going up in weight? Am I going to hide my head in the sand? Am I going to keep blaming everything and everyone around me? No, No, No!!!

Last Wednesday, after getting on the emoticon , I stepped up to the plate and got back in the game! I reset my SparkPeople goals and decided to start fresh (really fresh). Resetting everything gave me some concern because it gets rid of all the tracking that I did. That included all the good tracking I did in the first few months of my journey. It made me think it through a bit. I decided that although I would be losing those past days of tracking, my recent tracking was like next to nothing. I went into my account and did what I had to do to start over! I can say that I breathed a sigh but it was a good sign. I felt like I was taking the first step to moving forward toward my goals.

Next, I prayed. emoticon Okay I have said it before but here it is again. I am a Christian and I not ashamed of it and I am not going to hide it just to make someone like me or read/watch my blogs/vlogs. I prayed for help. I know that I will not be able to do this journey without God's help. I now know that I have the best health and fitness coach on my side!

The next thing I did was to start tracking. It was difficult starting to track after not doing it for a while but I have been sticking with it. I have only missed one day since Wednesday. I began drinking my water and trying to get up to 12 glasses a day.

Now this is a side bar on water consumption. emoticon I have come to understand that you should drink 1/2 your weight in ounces of water. So for example a 350 pound woman (which I am dreadfully close to) should drink 175 oz of water. That is 22 glass of water. So that is why I have tried to get my water consumption up to like 20 glasses.

In the past, having to restart or being at my start weight again would have shut me down but I am not giving up. I am just using the fact that I am where I am (because of not doing the things I know I need to do) to get back on track and move forward! Do I call the past 11 months a bust? No, I do not. I had some really successful months. I have learned so much about exercise and eating healthy. I have learned that when I do the things I know I need to do consistently, I will lose the weight! I have learned to stay away from the mind games that I played in the past. I have learned that I need to keep a positive attitude and speak positive affirmations about myself and my journey. The huge thing is that I learned that I can't do this on my own!

So let me say this to any of you who have been struggling and are looking at a few added pounds or maybe you are like me and are looking at being at your start weight or anywhere in between, YOU can turn things around. You can begin again. There is no shame in having to start over. Maybe you just need to reboot in a few areas. emoticon Maybe like me you just want to wipe the slate clean and begin fresh. emoticon The main thing is to DO IT! The sooner you begin, the sooner you will reach your goals. The longer you keep sitting there wishing you were doing the work instead of DOING the work, the longer it will be before you reach any goals. The other thing is that the longer you sit there wishing and not doing the work, the more weight you will see come back on. Don't make the journey longer than it has to be. Get a grip NOW!

emoticon can be today. Okay tomorrow if you are on the west coast! lol

Set a goal. You could start with you Fast Break goals like I have. If you blog, go back and read some of the blogs you wrote when you were doing the work and get that motivation back! Reach out to your Spark friends! We are here to help and support you! Also if you blog, when was the last time you blogged or journalled and got really honest with yourself? Maybe it is time to do just that! emoticon

Okay so before this blog becomes a book, I am going to go. I have burned my tongue on this cup of honesty so I have got to cool things down with a huge bottle of water!

Much love

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    Dear, there is nothing wrong with starting over.
    That is the wonderful thing about each new day -
    it is a chance to do a little better than the day before.

    for being sensible, thinkingthrough
    it all and NOT beeating yourself up

    I love this quote from Martin Luther King, Jr:
    "If you can't fly then run. If you can't run then walk.
    If you can't walk then crawl. But whatever you do, keep moving."

    Here are other good ones, but cannot recall where I read them”
    “Perseverance is failing 9 times and succeeding the 10th”
    “Success is failing 99 times and getting up 100” (or something like that)

    Hope you had a Super Sunday
    Have a Marvelous Monday !

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    Comment edited on: 4/24/2013 6:06:31 PM
    emoticon together!! We are all on SP to meet our goals. For some that is to lose weight and others it is to improve nutrition and increase our exercise. Some of us use SP to do all three. I know emoticon if you emoticon . I am glad you reset your goals. A fresh start is what you need!

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  • JCV501
    Every minute of every day.......say NO to the flesh and say YES to the Holy Spirit who lives on the inside of you.
    1862 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon hot cup of honesty.
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  • FIREFLY413
    I sooooooooooo needed to see this. Thank you! emoticon
    1864 days ago
  • ELSCO55
    Great and I really needed this one. I have often asked for help in prayers, but I do not think I have been serious enough. I will be seriously putting this on my prayer list and will include you as well. You have really motivated me today. Hope to hear more about your journey.
    1864 days ago
    How about this is an awesome amazing post. I felt exactly like this and have been telling myself the exact same thing in terms of starting over and I feel great. I just pray before and during my workouts and when I wakeup. It helps improves my mood and makes me keep going. So thank you for this cause sometimes when we're disappointed, all we can see is what we did wrong and not what we can do right. Thank you for putting it in print! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1865 days ago
    Great blog Susan - I appreciate your honesty and insights - I needed to hear these too! Thanks for always saying thing like they are. Your journey is an inspiration to me.
    1865 days ago
    Very nice to see you back and thanks for the honesty. You have a ton of people who love you and are behind you all the way or right along side of you to walk with you. We all can use this steaming cup of honesty in our lives or we'll get nowhere. I really wish you the best of luck because I will be one of the one's walking along the side of you. (hugs) Noel
    1865 days ago
    Thank you your honesty. You have been successful in the past, and will overcome the obstacles that are sure to come. Your strong, positive, and capable of doing this.
    Wishing you much success in your new journey. emoticon emoticon
    1865 days ago
    just think if we never kept fighting how bad off we'd be. you have learned a lot this past year...i've watched so much of it and i'm proud of where you are even though you are having to start over. u can do this and will see it through..b/c...u rock!!

    Philippians 1:6
    being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

    1865 days ago
    Great blog! I admire your honesty and strength not to give up.
    1865 days ago
    emoticon on getting back into the game I'm with you prayer never hurt anyone best way to start is with a little prayer
    1865 days ago
    emoticon Back and way to be honest with yourself. Move forward and do the things you know work. I think lots of us have lost it only to gain it back.. 60 lbs in my case. So I know how it hurts , but just MOVE Forward.. the past is done and we can't change it.

    Best wishes on your New Journey.. You are worth it.
    1865 days ago
    Thanks for such a great blog! I gained back over half the weight it took me two years to lose after meeting my bf. I fell right back into those old habits. I turned the boat around in mid January and yes you can do it. I'm not back to where I was but I'm better than I was and I'm just taking it one step at a time. We've got this!!!
    1865 days ago
    A fresh start sounds perfect! I love your attitude which will carry you far in this journey. Remember your spark friends are here to help you through too. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • LINDAK25
    1865 days ago
    You are far from being alone in this. Kudos for allowing yourself a fresh start!
    1865 days ago
    Wow! So proud of your honesty and your willingness to admit to having to start over again. I'm right there with you, unfortunately emoticon , but we can start over again and get it right this time. One of my favorite scripture verses is Phil. 4:13 which says I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. God truly will help you when you call on Him for strength. Keep up the great work and determination! Hugs coming your way, Sharon
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  • TERESA159
    Great blog! and so true for so many of us who've done well and then for some reason slipped back into old habits and saw most or all of the weight come back. So, yeah, what do you do??? You take what you've learned and get right back to it! Yay! That's the only way to ever get where you want to be, not give up. Congrats on your tenacity, lots of people just give up. Not you! You've got what it takes to succeed and I wish you the best on the long and tough journey ahead of you.

    Keep your head in the game!
    1866 days ago
    Excellent blog. You have a healthy attitude and knowledge of tools that will help you reach your goals. Plus reaching out for can do it!!
    1866 days ago
    emoticon emoticon You are on your way and bringing others with you. I really admire you. I have been where you are many times and have done a lot of self damage before I got back at it. You can do this. You can begin again at any moment. I watch the spark coach video yesterday that reminded me that when I go astray from my plan I can stop and immediately get back on track if I choose. You will be successful. Don't let up!
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    1866 days ago
    Love your quotes!!! Great blog! Keep on keeping on!
    1866 days ago
    I've been back to the beginning more than once. I've learned something about myself each time, and now I'm in a place where I feel like I can trust myself to keep going even when things get difficult. You'll get there, too.
    1866 days ago
    Great blog and the voice of a determined woman. Like this cup of honesty to get us going! emoticon
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  • STHAX10
    1866 days ago
    emoticon I am with you!

    1866 days ago
    Great blog! Dream big and then dream bigger!

    Re-look at that whole water thing though! Who is your authority on that? Don't use "broscience" to make your health decisions! (look it up if you have never heard that term)

    You can actually poison yourself with too much water (look it up!)


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    1866 days ago
    I sense a calm, determination in you now. I think you are really going to use the lessons you've learned in the past 11 months to your benefit. There's a poster in the Motivational section of SP that goes something like this: Being fat is hard. Getting fit is hard. Choose your hard. You've chosen.
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    1866 days ago
    every day is a fresh start- just like the mercy of the Lord is new every morning. you can do this Susan! one healthy choices at a time-- and if that means tracking- then do it-
    1866 days ago
    I already sent you a msg, but you know I can't go without commenting, because it's what I do. I am just so proud of you and if there was ever someone who could get to her goals, that person is you. So proud! emoticon
    1866 days ago
    Hi, Susan, I really like all the pictures you chose for your blog, especially the beginner one. I also like this line particularly "The longer you keep sitting there wishing you were doing the work instead of DOING the work, the longer it will be before you reach any goals." You are so right.
    Love, Mom
    1866 days ago
    Go for it! You did it before, you can do it again.
    1866 days ago
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