Not looking back
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
I've been beating myself up for gaining back some weight. I have so many beautiful clothes that either don't fit me or are quite tight so I can't wear them. I feel tired and sluggish too often. I know other than the extra weight I'm quite healthy - had a check up recently and some blood work done. But I am smoking again.... a bad habit I will stop yet again! Right now it seems to be helping keep my stress levels low (my daughter told me I'm so much calmer when I smoke...lol... and she was the one who really wanted to quit! She also told me that she knows I will stop when I am ready because I'm a strong spirited woman and accomplish anything I set my mind to.... in other words "super stubborn!")
So I made a major decision today that I'm not looking back at my failings. It doesn't accomplish anything except makes me depressed. Instead I'm planning forward, taking it one day at a time. Fretting over things doesn't change them and only tires me. Setting goals and taking steps towards those goals is what makes them happen. So I'm going to be gentle with myself. Forgive me for taking way too many steps backward..... and set my determination on NEVER, EVER, EVER letting it happen again! Sure I'll slip up a little, but I'm human and it happens.