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Feelings about food?

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

Ok, forgive the ramble, I'm just trying to sort things out in my head.

I was really looking forward to a weekend at a friend's house. I anticipated a slight gain, but nothing horrific. So while I was planning on a great time with someone I've known all my life, there was a tiny part of me that was worried about how much damage I could do. Not obsessing at all; just collateral damage during an attempt to reconnect and lower stress. Barely a blip on the radar. It was planned. Zero guilt.

This morning the scale tells me I've undone that tiny 0.4 gain. And it hit me that the relief of zero guilt, while seemingly a good thing, points to something I need to fix.

Ok; understatement of the year. Or decade. Semi-century?

Negative feelings about food and my weight. Duh, right? How many overweight people don't feel guilt and shame? Show of hands? I didn't think so.

Point 1: I noticed feeling no guilt over a weekend away that I felt I "deserved" because I was stressed out.

Point 2: I was relieved to have lost the gained weight.

Conclusion 1: I really did feel guilty, or shameful. Or disappointed in myself.

Conclusion 2: I *really* need to figure out how to make food simply fuel for my body, and drop all the emotional baggage.


I know, we hear it all the time. We say it too. "No guilt, and move on." But it's just not that simple.

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    Now keeping the snack foods that trigger me out of the house has made a big difference. I have no will power and so don't even try if it is around so when out of my sight then it is out of my mind. Also it has helped that hubby does alot of the cooking now and plain food just doesn't trigger me to overeat. I will overeat or eat the wrong things when with friends or eating out so rarely eat out or just visit friends for the visit not meals. It has helped but think this will be something I will have to deal with the rest of my life. Looking at my teen and 20's when I thought I coudl eat anything realize that was wrong..and now in my 60's I pay for wrong choices. But it angers me when I see skinny people eating things that if I even smell puts weight on me..I'm with you!!! emoticon emoticon
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