Decade Goal Reboot, Day 8
Monday, April 08, 2013
8 Days off sugar, I exercised the last 2 days. It's insanely windy here, which makes me much less interested in the walk break I know I need to take.
It's been a a struggle not to weigh. I would've weighed Friday, Saturday and Sunday to check my progress, and weighed today to see if I could report a loss on SP for the week...
I was using the scale to tell me how well I was sticking with my process, my healthy behaviors; using the scale to tell me if it was "working" instead of focusing on how I felt and looked. The scale was my "instant feedback" which is rather silly considering the multiple pound variations any body goes through in a day, let alone a week.
So I'm trying to focus on how I feel, and I did measure everything this morning for a baseline (I'll post those tomorrow) of what I hope to be Non-Scale Victories in the future. I feel kinda tired and kinda down. That's mostly the sugar withdrawal talking and I won't likely feel much better for another week. But I'll still be checking in here to see if I can feel better with more exercise and more vegetables.
The hardest part is that here I have to learn to trust the process. I have to trust that if I'm eating within my calories, and not having sweets, and getting vegetables, and getting in regular exercise, I really will lose the weight. I don't trust that yet. I keep wanting to check in with the scale for it to validate me, verify that I'm doing the right thing. Changing this mindset is gonna take some hard work. Heh, but then again, so is exercising every day (or 5 out of 7).
But why am I doing this? Because:
I am worth it. I can do this. I need to nurture my body.