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Paleo Day One

Sunday, April 07, 2013

I rediscovered carbs the last couple of weeks. I totally binged on cereal and granola bars. I even had a maple scone at Starbucks yesterday. I have felt bloated, enormous and negative.

I have been overwhelmed by everything in my life. My living situation, my financial situation, are both in a very poor state. I cannot easily change either.

We just went through the personnel review process at job #1. My job has completely changed this year thanks to our new enterprise-wide software system. I feel as if I am a brand-new employee with all the excitement and fear that entails. I have been given very nebulous guidance about what I need to do to earn the promotion, title and raise that I strongly want. It turns out the money may not come with it. If you look at the labor statistics for "paralegal", they are generally broken down by the salaries in San Francisco vs the salaries in San Jose. I work nearly midway between and there is no specific breakdown for the midPeninsula. My company, of course, chooses the lower range (San Jose) and tells me that, because, by virtue of my service and past raises, my salary is already in range.

Part of the review process includes a ranking. The ranking scale was changed at the end of the review period so that no one can earn an "exceeds expectations" rating. Couple that with the lack of a raise in my future, I am deflated by this review.

Family and friends are clamoring for me to visit. There is another high school reunion, my adopted mom is failing, a dear friend has been asking me to come see her for a few years - a long list of trips. I can afford none. This year, I could take the time, but cannot afford to do anything.

I just spent over $1K on my car and need to spend about 3 times that soon. I cannot afford to replace it - car payments and increased insurance would be an even greater burden.

Lots of stress.

I am not sleeping well. Seasonal allergies, seasonal asthma and migraines have laid me flat.

I have nothing to lose by starting my paleo experiment. It will have to be done on the cheap. I am ignoring the huge bin of cereal, of beans, pasta and rice that I have in the house. This will be a challenge, but I need to make a positive change.

I had egg substitute and sausage for breakfast along with 2 cups of coffee. The coffee included nonfat milk and artificial sweetner - an imperfect start, but a start nonetheless.

I need to lose weight. I need to lose weight for my health, for quality of life, so I can get a new wardrobe, so I can feel good about myself, so I can move forward. I feel frozen in so many ways.
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  • _LINDA
    This company you have worked so long and hard for sure doesn't seem to value its employees too much. I don't suppose you have enough job experience to look elsewhere, especially in a place closer to your family and or friends? Maybe you need a sea change in jobs if you feel you are spinning your wheels with this one. Especially when no one knows that at any time they can be given the axe. That kind of stress is as bad to your health as anything.
    If you must go on this paleo thing, the least you can do is make the meats lean quality cuts and nothing processed which would include hidden cereal fillers and tons of sodium. The low carb thing has worked for a lot of people. Good luck with it!
    Sorry about your vehicle, that was quite the hit :((
    1869 days ago
    I wish you well with your new plan. So sorry to see that you are not being paid enough! Nothing worse than not being valued! emoticon

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    1870 days ago
    I feel you on the struggles. All I can say is good luck and everything really does seem to work out right in the end of it all.
    1870 days ago
    Paleo IS a lot more costly. Meats and seafoods cost quite a bit more than cheaper carbs. Make sure you can afford it for a real long time if you're going into it. I don't think it's something you can just stumble into. Good luck, Glenn
    1871 days ago
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