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Pulling out of the fog?

Sunday, April 07, 2013

Instead of blogging about all the things I'm going to do, here's a bit of different approach.

In the last 2-3 weeks, I have learned that I am worth washing my face twice a day. I have begun to learn to smile when I don't want to. I've learned to put some thought in my appearance. I have changed my stinkin thinkin of cleaning my house, to a different motivation of blessing my home (thanks FlyLady!)

I'd let my face go so long without TLC that not only was I breaking out, I had the ugliest dry patch near my mouth. It was nearly 2 inches around. With these new habits, that patch is hardly noticeable (and that is NOT to fabulous make up coverings--I'm still learning how to do this stuff.

In all honesty, my motivation was not noble. It was the result of a "discussion" with my DH complete with unkind words, ever changing expectations, and a sense of complete loneliness. There were not even tears this time. I had decided to exceed these "unrealistic" expectations with sarcastic over-and-aboveness.

And yet here I sit. Prouder, straighter, clearer. If you must know, I'm not even chowing down as I blog. (I know you are all shocked at the inferred possibility that I was before.....)

My body may not be smaller--but it is softer. My motives may not be pure (in progress, but not quite there) but my behaviors are something that are becoming more for me. I'm no where near perfect (I know I never will be--and that's okay), but I am actually closer to what I wanted me to be.

Who knew that I could rise to the challenge? Who knew that that series of conversations would lead to a better place? It was not the words that were exchanged, but the resulting change INSIDE of myself that led to this.

Which brings me to my point--if I had one.

We never know what in our lives will be the catalysis for our next transformation.

On a completely different note, when I read this blog I knew I had to share it. I hope it touches you.

Maybe next time, I'll share a picture of my new secret shoes??
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    That lonely feeling sucks.. Especially when you are married. Glad you are taking the initiative to make yourself feel better! Don't do it for anybody but yourself though. You deserve it!
    1897 days ago
    good for you!
    1900 days ago
    We never know what will be the impetus for change but when we rise to the challenge, it cal all be good. Keep that positive attitude. And I love the blog you shared. Here's to a better tomorrow. HUGS!
    1900 days ago
    Good for you. You NEED to take care of yourself so you can take care of others.
    1901 days ago
    This is truly a step in the right direction. Sometimes we take care of everyone else and leave ourselves for last (if ever). I know what you mean. It takes a lot to finally MAKE time to take care of yourself. Once you do - you will care that much more about you - about your goals. Success is just around the corner - and you are on the right path.

    Keep taking care of you - in every way possible. You deserve it!

    1901 days ago
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