Feeling positive. :)

Sunday, April 07, 2013

This morning I completed week 3, day 3 of the Couch to 5K workout! It is kicking my butt. While I get frustrated if I compare what I'm able to do now (jog for 3-minute stretches and BARELY make it), to what I could do before (run a marathon), right now I'm only focusing on what I'm able to do now. Because, after all, if I'm going to compare the current me to a previous me, I could also compare myself to two weeks ago, when I struggled to run for 30 seconds at a time and was 4 pounds heavier... So, it's useless to compare, I see (at this moment anyway). We can always find a better and a worse Self to compare to, but the fact is, we can only change ourselves now.

Having said that, I also asked my mom (who I'm currently staying with for one more month) to do the dreaded deed.. I asked her to take Before pictures! Ugh. Front, Side, and worst of all, Back. I had her do it Biggest Loser-style (a.k.a. bra and capri yoga pants). It was hard, but she didn't bat an eye and reminded me of how great it will be to have these pictures for later comparison, for those days when I don't feel motivated, or am frustrated, or am [This] close to giving up. I also had her take body measurements, because I do know that last time I lost weight, I was frustrated that I didn't have that to use for comparison. I am someone who doesn't notice things like if my jeans are fitting loser (maybe they were always this way?), or whether I'm buying smaller size clothes (because depending on the brand, you might be a size or two difference even if there is no weight change), or such things. I do best with Hard Facts. So, the other thing that I'm doing this time around is that, instead of just writing down my current weight each week, I take a picture of the scale. Last time, I remember having trouble feeling like I'd lost weight at times because I didn't REMEMBER truly being at my starting weight... So this time, I'll have hard, fast proof! It sounds strange that I don't remember being at a certain weight, that I don't remember how my clothes felt, that I forget how sluggish I felt, etc, but I think it goes along with poor awareness. As in, poor body awareness, which is why I was able to let myself get to where I'm at today in the first place.

Anyway, in addition to jogging the Couch to 5k (I COULD say that I ran it, because by MY standards, I did "run" it, but it's a slow, fat-girl run, so I'll call it a jog), measuring, weighing, and photographing myself, I also, finally started weight-lifting! I Love lifting weights, but haven't found the motivation until today. I started slow. I just did 3 sets, 10 reps each of front-arm raises, lateral raises, and rows. But, for now, that's a start. And it's enough. I feel great and I'm going to leave it at that!

Now... off to the store to fill my healthy grocery list for the week!

Before I go, though, I'll close this blog with a quote I found that I LOVE. It really resonates with me.

"I Will Become What I Know I Am."

Love it. A gentle reminder that I will get there...
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    It's hard to not look back at when we were "fitter" but like you said, look at where you were just a short bit ago. I am doing that too. I actually chased my son around the park playing tag today. I have never been healthy enough to do that with him being older. I can tell so much that my stamina is getting better. Sounds like yours is too. I also can't really feel or tell I am losing weight. I need a tape measure. Sometimes I still feel like I look 272 even though I am 31 lbs lighter. It's just a little hard because I haven't lost weight in a couple weeks. But like my sister reminded me, I am building muscle. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1897 days ago
    Way to go!! You have inspired me to try some before pictures. I have taken a few pictures (candids with family) and have enough trouble looking at those. I wish I had some "after" pictures from the last time I lost 20+ pounds. Maybe I will take pictures each month. I do believe that I will start doing measurements too. I think you will be very excited when you look back in a few weeks!

    I completed week 1, day 2 last night of C25k. Hang in there! I can't wait to hear that you have completed all of the weeks because I will be right behind you!!!

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    1898 days ago
    You're going to LOVE having those pics in a few months here! Way to go for doing it! I'm exactly the same way when it comes to not being fully aware of my body, and am grateful I took them when I started. I, too need hard facts and evidence to keep myself motivated.

    Love the positive attitude!
    1898 days ago
  • LESLEE33
    Great job! Sounds like your in a really good place. Your mom is right, it will be great to have the before pictures to look back on! emoticon
    1899 days ago
    Very nice, thank you.
    1899 days ago
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