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Making A Return

Sunday, April 07, 2013

Yeah, I took a break.
I was so obsessed with NUMBERS.

From calorie counting and measurements to what my scale shows, I let those blasted numbers rule how I felt about myself.

Don't misunderstand.
I'm not "all-of-a-sudden" cured from weighing and measuring and counting.
I have decided that my identity cannot be measured by those numbers.

During my self-imposed sabbatical, I didn't go crazy, consuming huge amounts of food. Instead, I used what I've learned from when I started on Spark, and have actually lost a little. Perhaps I didn't lose as much as I "should" have since it has been close to a month of being away. But, I'm content with a 5lb weight loss. It's certainly not a weight gain. Yet,

And, I think I may, finally, perhaps, possibly be starting to believe what my boyfriend has been trying to tell me since we first met and became friends over 10 years ago, that

Granted, there will be men AND women who will completely disagree with his assessment. Yet, I may not believe they are all that great looking, outward or inward. You may think Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie are simply gorgeous. I disagree.

But, close your eyes. . .now what do you see?
Nothing. You must base the beauty of that person you are interacting with solely on their personality, their beliefs, their morals, and their values.

Yes, I've lost weight. And yes, that has helped my spirits. But as my guy has asked me, "Do you feel better?" My answer is yes. He continues with, "Will you feel better if you lost more?" My answer continues to be yes. His response? I love you, regardless. I love your body. I love your mind. I love everything that is you.

For what more can a gal ask?
And, you know what?
I love him for loving me as I am.

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    emoticon emoticon welcome back!
    2225 days ago
    emoticon welcome back!

    Sometimes I feel like I am a bit obsessed about the number on the scale too. It should be more important how I feel in my own skin. If I am comfortable, healthy and satisfied with my progress, then those should be the measurements that count. Glad you're back blogging again!
    2232 days ago
    Welcome Back! Now the task at hand is to love you as you are!

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    2232 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    I'm so glad you're back and feeling better about yourself. You are so worth it as we all are! It doesn't matter what the scale says, it's what we say and think about ourselves and how the people closest to us feel about us. I'm glad you're back on track now. I missed you! HUGS!
    2233 days ago
  • MAGA99
    2233 days ago
    Great! Feel good about yourself! You are so worth it!
    2233 days ago
    How happy you must be!
    2233 days ago
    Nice blog.
    2233 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    so glad you are back! and you are absolutely right on all of your statements- and you are a beautiful woman- I would give anything for your hair. But you are also kind, generous, thoughtful etc and a great blog to read!

    I admit I love the scale to move but I continue to make my long list of NSVs that get longer all the time and they are the things I wanted to get healthy for. So to me I am a success regardless of what the rest of the world thinks about my outside! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2233 days ago
  • JMC155
    emoticon back. I have missed your blogs. He is right you know (at the risk of getting stoned for saying a man is right) if we feel better that is what counts. I had my trainer ask me the same questions this week. Because not a single number changed in 3 months. I finally agreed that if I feel better that is what is important. emoticon emoticon and remember your are emoticon
    2233 days ago
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