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Reality Check

Friday, April 05, 2013

aka, Come to Jesus Meeting. I weighed myself today and as expected, I gained. I am now at my highest weight ever - 150.6 lbs. Whatever inches I lost, I gained back and then some. My stomach and thighs are bigger - it's where I gain.

I don't understand / know why I let myself get like this. I was doing SO great - I was losing inches, feeling good. Then I just lost it. I got down on myself, I got depressed, I wanted results now (even though I know it takes time) - mostly I just got low and gave up. Now? I'm right back where I started: I have no energy. I'm having stomach issues again from all of the crap I've been eating. I feel horrible about myself.

I have no more excuses now. The weather is turning (absolutely beautiful day today!) and it's time for me to get real and get (re-)started. It's time for me to get going and get moving. I have a wedding dress in my closet that I HAVE to fit into in less than 6 months. I've GOT to do this. I've GOT to stick with it this time.

I'm starting with baby steps. No soda (good news is I've been soda free since last Aug/Sept). No more cheese binges. And absolutely no more chips. I just can't control myself - if there's a bag in the house, I'll eat half of it before I realize it. I've got to get back to drinking at least 2 bottles of water daily. And I'm going to have to make an honest effort to eat more fruits & veggies during the day.

As for exercise, again, I'm starting small. I'm going to start walking daily. Maybe twice a day, but definitely once daily. I've got to get more serious about strength training. I have all the equipment, I just need to dust it off and use it!

Once I really get going, I'll add cardio to my day - treadmill, elliptical, stairs, hulu hooping, boxing.

I have to do this. This path I'm on isn't healthy. I know once I get started, I'll start feeling better - about my health, about me.

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  • THE_SHAKESHAFT
    Good luck!
    2054 days ago
  • LAILATN
    Congrat for getting back in the game! It's easy (and normal) to get into a slump after some good health/fitness weeks... the important thing is to get back on track and choose to feel good! You're doing it! emoticon
    2055 days ago
  • TWILAQ1
    You can do this. Here are a couple of tips: Stop eating pretty much anything white (flour, bread - even whole wheat, rice, pasta, potatoes. Also, start taking apple cider vinegar in water 30 min or so before each meal.

    Losing those refined carbs and adding vinegar will drop a few pounds quickly to give you the motivation and drive to push it further. You'll get into that dress.

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    2055 days ago
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