aka, Come to Jesus Meeting. I weighed myself today and as expected, I gained. I am now at my highest weight ever - 150.6 lbs. Whatever inches I lost, I gained back and then some. My stomach and thighs are bigger - it's where I gain.
I don't understand / know why I let myself get like this. I was doing SO great - I was losing inches, feeling good. Then I just lost it. I got down on myself, I got depressed, I wanted results now (even though I know it takes time) - mostly I just got low and gave up. Now? I'm right back where I started: I have no energy. I'm having stomach issues again from all of the crap I've been eating. I feel horrible about myself.
I have no more excuses now. The weather is turning (absolutely beautiful day today!) and it's time for me to get real and get (re-)started. It's time for me to get going and get moving. I have a wedding dress in my closet that I HAVE to fit into in less than 6 months. I've GOT to do this. I've GOT to stick with it this time.
I'm starting with baby steps. No soda (good news is I've been soda free since last Aug/Sept). No more cheese binges. And absolutely no more chips. I just can't control myself - if there's a bag in the house, I'll eat half of it before I realize it. I've got to get back to drinking at least 2 bottles of water daily. And I'm going to have to make an honest effort to eat more fruits & veggies during the day.
As for exercise, again, I'm starting small. I'm going to start walking daily. Maybe twice a day, but definitely once daily. I've got to get more serious about strength training. I have all the equipment, I just need to dust it off and use it!
Once I really get going, I'll add cardio to my day - treadmill, elliptical, stairs, hulu hooping, boxing.
I have to do this. This path I'm on isn't healthy. I know once I get started, I'll start feeling better - about my health, about me.
Thanks for always being here SP.