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I'm so frustrated...

Thursday, April 04, 2013

I'm so frustrated with myself! I have everything at my disposal to get fit and lose weight, the only thing stopping me is myself. I want to say that I hate myself, but that wouldn't be true. I don't hate myself; I hate my habits and the way I do things. I can learn and study and write stuff and all that, but when it comes down to actually doing stuff, eating right and exercising, I never do.
I thought once I have a car, a set schedule, good grades and especially once I had a gym membership, I would go to the gym and be healthy. Boy, was I wrong! I have not been to the gym in months, despite having an active membership. When I first got my membership I went at least twice a week, just to keep consistent. And I remember just how much better I felt, how I felt like I was a whole me when I regularly exercised and ate healthy. Now? Everything is just kind've flat. I want to do things, but never have the time to do it. Heck, I don't even know what is happening to my paychecks. I can never seem to save any money, despite only having to pay for food and gas. No other bills. Filling up every six days does drain my bank account though.
Anyhow, back to the main subject. I'm frustrated that despite knowing pretty much EVERYTHING there is to know for me to lose weight, I still don't act. I have even have a particular interest in nutrition as a career for the future. That means I know MORE than the average person on nutrition, plus I have a degree in culinary management and experience in the field. I am also slowly working my way through several personal trainer texts (one of which will actually get me to having a certificate). My main point is: I am frustrated that I know so much, but so so little. I go to bed all gung-ho, and when I wake I just am like "Walk? Ha! I can do that later!"
P.S. I finally have my GPA high enough I am off of academic probation and hence can register for classes withOUT having to go to the academic advising (I'm still going since I have no idea what classes would be best for me to take right now).

NOTE: Send me a message when you read this asking if I have worked out yet.
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    All I can add is "Welcome to the Majority!" Being a member in good standing requires that you continue to let your day-every day-get in the way of what you/we know we need to be doing for our health. Easiest majority to belong to, but it can be hell to get out of!!
    My half-pence worth of advice: start associating every day, as much as possible, with people your age, socio-econmic group, that are living the healthy life style You want to live. Health is contagious, but sometimes we gotta let it rub off on us to get the bug.

    Got your back, my friend!
    1872 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    Have YOU worked out yet? We all need to take this journey just one day at a time. Just because we slack off or make non healthy food choices does not mean we are failures or that we should give up on ourselves. The hardest part (I think)) is being consistent on this journey and the only way we can do that is ONE day at a time. We are only human, not perfect. But we do have the choice to do things differently. YOU can make a few changes and work on those until you no longer need to think about them. Than move on to a couple more changes. Can you make time for one day at the gym? If so just do it. On other days make a promise to yourself that you will do some kind of exercise at least 10 minutes a day. Best of luck to you on getting back on are never alone on this journey, we are here for you. emoticon
    1873 days ago
    So have you worked out yet? ;-)
    1874 days ago
  • INAFFIT319
    I appreciate your honesty. I agree that we've all been there. Most of us know what to do, but we all hit roadblocks. When I'm in this sort of funk, it helps me to try to find motivators...reading other blog posts, rewarding myself for meeting a goal, talking with a friend who is also trying to lose weight, reading articles. And honestly...sometimes its days or even weeks of doing these things before I actually FEEL motivated. For now, you might just have to "fake it 'til you make it." Put on that workout gear, even though you don't feel like it, and go to the gym. Eat that healthy meal, even though you want something else. You are going to make mistakes. You are going to feel frustrated. It's a part of the process. Just keep pushing. You can do it!
    1874 days ago
    You honestly sound like you might have ADD. It is the most frustrating thing to go through. Intelligent, great planning, and totally unfocused is how I lived my life for years. I ended up with 6 bachelor degrees and an associate and have made a ton of money...but still have debt...not completely out of control...but the possibility is still there. I don't know if you can do it, but I suggest you sit down and make a rigid schedule for your self...plan your day's activities and your spending. Take it 1 day at a time and then work up to a week...then a month. When you have too much on your mind and too many distractions, you have to be disciplined. Allow yourself to succeed. You have the whole world in front of you...but you have to chew the elephant one bite at a time in order to swallow it. Keep Sparkin'! You can do this.
    1874 days ago
    I know exactly what you mean. I think we all have been there, and still go there from time to time.

    I tried to get a handle on nutrition first. Exercise just made me hungrier, so I tried to focus on eating good whole foods. Cut out the crap carbs. That cut the cravings for me. I am full for longer on less when I eat good fat, protein, and I like my good carbs.

    I dont go to the gym, it is too far and I would rather use that time being productive at home, using my own body weight to exercise or getting stuff done at home in cardio cleaning mode, adding in things like squats at every opportunity. I just bought a book for women, by the be your own gym guy, but havent started it yet.

    Anyways, the key for me was nutrition. Eating good whole real foods - that helped to clear my head, gave me energy, gave me the vitamins I was lacking for so long, and gave me the desire to do other things again, like exercise.

    I wish I had more advice. For me, I just had to choose this as my lifestyle. It's just the way it is. I knew that if I didnt get a grip on my food choices, I would die an early death, so eating the bad foods is just not an option. Sure there is the occasional birthday party or going out to dinner, etc but I dont keep bad stuff in my house for my day to day choices. It just doesnt fit in my goals and what I want to accomplish with my health and my life.

    Best of luck to you!
    1874 days ago
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