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Too Exhausted for Too Long

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

Since early November, I have been dealing with my 16-year old son who has been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and over the top anxiety. He has not been to school since then and currently is on home school and home with me all day. The doctors are wanting to put him into a residential treatment program but my husband is still fighting it saying he wants to give it another try. The problem is, he works 10-11 hour days at the office and the comes home and goes back to work so he doesn't really get the full effect of the situation. In amongst all of this, my mother is 81 years old and is slowing down rather rapidly. I'm having to run her to doctor's, do her grocery shopping, and just day to day care. So far this week alone I've taken her to doctor, my son to the doctor and her back to the doctor today and it's only Wednesday. I also have a job working from home that puts its dibs on my time. AAAHHHH!!!

I've been trying to take better care of myself to take care of everyone else. I've gotten back to the gym 2 days per week for the last week. I've only been once this week and was going to go this morning, but I got out of bed and my muscles were just limp and I didn't have the motivation to do much of anything. I also suffer from chronic depression which also plays a part in the equation. Since my son got sick, I've had to double my dosage of anti-depressants just to deal with the stress of everything. I know that exercise helps when I do it to give me more energy. Just need to find the energy to get the energy. Sounds very confusing I know. They say God will never give you more than you can handle but sometimes I just want to yell "time out!" and run away.

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    Your life seems to be one high stress situation after another! Hope you can find someone to help you lighten your load.
    1873 days ago
    What you are dealing with right now when send most people running. I am exhausted, but you make my mess seem much less. Do you have a church that can help orvide some support? Maybe there is place for your Mother to spend some of her day time hours to get you some relief. Before you lose it, reach out to others.

    Praying God will place someone in your path that can help you.
    1875 days ago
    I feel for what you are going through. A couple of thoughts come to my mind. Is there anyone - family or friends - who are nearby and can help with your mother? If there is, please don't hesitate to ask for that help. As for your husband wanting to give it one more try, is there going to come a point where he is willing to concede that your son needs more help than you can give him at home? Hopefully, you have at least one doctor you have confidence in to give you and your husband the advice and guidance to do the best thing for your son. Amidst all of this, you have to be sure to take care of you. If you can't get to the gym, go outside for a walk, if for no other reason than you need some "me" time. Just keep taking it day by day, and do the best you can. No one can ask for more. emoticon
    1875 days ago
  • LADYJ6942
    Oh my goodness, talk about a full plate. Here are some hugs, hope the help.
    1875 days ago
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