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April 1st, No Foolin'!

Monday, April 01, 2013

Okay, so my alarm goes off this morning. And I am RIGHT UP...
..and hit the "Off" button...
...and get back in bed.

I really, really, wanted to go back to sleep. My bed was comfortable. I had already woken up at least two other times throughout the night, anxious and worried that my phone had gone off without me hearing it, so I was a little, let's say, extra tired, from that.

Then, I got to thinking. I told my husband I would. I told you guys I would. So, why wouldn't I? Because I was tired? Because, if I got up now, I'll be tired later? Newsflash: I'm ALWAYS tired (It's a thing, even when I am in healthy habits.) That's nothing new. Yeah, I could do the ST portion later, after my boys left, as planned, but the cardio is important too!

So, I'm afraid of being sleepy later. Was there any other reason I couldn't get up? No.. Well, what else is there. What else am I afraid of? Going to the gym and walking for one mile? No, I'm not afraid of that. I can walk a mile in my sleep. I, then, got to thinking about all the people I told I would begin my fitness journey today. I realized, I'd be afraid of failing you guys, letting you all down.

That fear of letting everyone down is, primarily, what did it. I was afraid of failing in the eyes of my supporters. I can fail myself, and I can justify it away. But, I care what others think of me, and while I'm not going to let it RULE my life, I can let it help motivate me to get what I need to get done done. I let down my Biggest Loser team last year by not pushing as hard as I could have, although at the time I thought I was. I let down my team by stepping away from the program when I thought it, in some aspects, wasn't a good fit for me- in reality, it was ME that wasn't doing anything for me, making excuses and half-assing it when I could have pushed and tried a little harder.

I don't want to let anyone down, myself or otherwise, any more.

So, when I realized I didn't want to let anyone down. I hopped out of bed, got my clothes and shoes on, and went to the gym.

19 minutes and 20 seconds (and travel and set-up time) later, I had completed my 1 mile walk/jog. Yes, I did jog a little bit. My butt was jiggly, though, so I jogged until it became bothersome. I know over time, and possibly with a different pair of pants, the jiggle won't be noticable!

And yes, as of this point, I am done with my planned exercises for the day. Walk/jog is done, as is my set of strength training exercises.

For the record: I stink at lunges. I did a set of forward lunges at first. In the middle of that set, I modified to backwards lunges, as I found it gave me more stability. And, then, for the last two sets, I just did stationary lunges. In my opinion, the stationary lunges burned more than the forward or backward lunges did! I definitely felt it in my inner thighs afterwards!

Tomorrow: Another mile, and a (now postponed) date with Jillian Michaels.

- Did some laundry. Squatted to take the clothes out of the dryer. WOWWEE, my legs were feeling it!
- No date with Jillian tomorrow (sorry, babe!) I have to drive in to work, so I don't have the time to workout with her DVDs. Next week!
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    That is fabulous and I'm sure it makes you feel much better today!
    I can't stand lunges, they really bother my knees.
    Way to go incorporating exercise into one of your daily routines (laundry)!
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    1905 days ago
    That guilt and fear of letting people down is a big motivator for me as well. And for the record, you definitely didn't let the team down, at least in my opinion. But we did miss you!
    1905 days ago
    Great job!
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  • AGK3112
    emoticon pushing ourself in the morning is very challenging. I am one of those people who been keep hitting snooze. It does happen to me always that I want to wake up at 5:30 or 6:00 in the morning but end up getting up at 7:00 or 8:00 (just because I have to drop my mom at work).

    And then breakfast and my computer..Here we go again...spark time, e-mail check, online surfing, cleaning and much more..

    Finally I end up getting ready for my work and come home at 8:30 at night ...tired & very tired .

    I just would say if you use any special techniques for getting up on time then please let me know. I need that a lot.
    1905 days ago
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