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Miss Fickle

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Sometimes, I would like to be one of those people who is always organized and lives up to commitments they have made to themselves and others; but I'm not - one of my most lamentable tragic flaws. This blog is a perfect example: I want to write every day, or at least every week. It doesn't happen. I try to never use the word "promise" because I've disappointed others and myself so many times.

My commitment to healthy eating is the latest casualty. I lost 80 pounds , gained back 30 and then lost 10. For some months, my weight was stable, but I can clearly see that it's creeping up. I cannot go back to where I was because I will die, but right now, I don't know where to look inside myself for the power to let go of my constant craving for sugar, ice cream, donuts - all markers when I fall into the worst case scenario. I don't know where to find, or how to access the power that is within me to help me heal myself.

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    To the three ladies who commented, "Thank you!" Your ideas and support are truly valuable to me and others who are stuck in this hole.
    1895 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    Maybe for now the best thing you can do is keep coming on to sparkpeople- reading other people's blogs and writing about your feelings- I think if you do this every day- you will get the strength to start saying "no" to those foods that are poison for you.
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    1905 days ago
    old habits die hard. It takes time and patience to get a new habit--I know--I'm in the same situation as you.
    1905 days ago
    Dear Miss Fickle...
    Finding that no button is really difficult.
    One thing, really the only thing, that works for me is remembering how I feel after I have eaten sugar... or worst given into a binge of sugary foods.
    I usually feel pretty rotten, upset stomach, skin crawling, can't move, don't feel motivated to do anything and just want to sit still and let the sugar pass through my system.
    If you can find something about all those horrible side effect of eating that type of diet, or the way it makes you feel and use that as motivation to say no, don't bring it into the house, don't have it as a go to.
    Search your pantry or your freezer for something that would replace those white bread, sugar rich foods for something more palatable and easier on your body- fresh fruits, there are more coming back into season now.
    If you want something fresh and frozen and creamy... get some frozen yogurt. For donuts, try low sugar graham crackers with cinnamon.
    I hope this has helped... but I also k now that the more you move away from that sort of eating the better you will feel all the way around.
    1905 days ago
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