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Friday, March 29, 2013

Went to MD today for thyroid check, since my dentist mentioned it yesterday. It is enlarged, so they're doing the TSH bloodwork and then I have to go for an ultrasound. I'm doing it the 10th when I'll be at the hospital any ways to get that chip implanted. This is such a nightmare. I feel like I'm falling apart. I'm too young for all of this to be happening. What's gonna happen when I get older?

I'm just sort of depressed about all of this. All I do is go to MD appts. it seems. So much has been going on with me medically (see previous blog) that it's got me down in the dumps. I'm sick of everything being wrong and nothing coming out of all the tests that I've had done. I wish I could wave a magic wand and have it all go away.

Then, to make it worse, I went online an looked up enlarged thyroid. Big mistake! It could be a goiter, it could be nodules, it could be a tumor. Now I'm worried about getting cancer. Why did I have to do that to myself. Some times the internet is a curse!

Annyone have any advise? Words of encouragement? Anything to keep me from going mad?
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    I have thyroid goiters, discovered 15 years ago and I know how you feel. I freaked out thinking the worst and had to wait 2 months to see a endocrinologist for his opinion on the ultrasound reports! 9 times of 10 from what they told me they are benign. I had to have them checked every 6 months for about 2 years and every year after that. They never grew any larger. They won't even take a biopsy if they are small. I was in my 40's when that happened. My aunt even had goiters and she is 80 years old now -still no problems ever with them as the years went by. I have to get another ultrasound soon, it has been awhile since my last one. Just to make sure I like to check. And it is the most curable cancer there is-if that is any comfort.
    Don't worry too much, I know that is hard to do, but you have a better chance of it not being anything than being cancer. There are so many out there that get them. And my thyroid levels are fine too.
    Hang in there. I hope all goes well for you. Keep us posted! emoticon
    1869 days ago
    Sorry you are going through such a rough time. I know it is hard but hang in there. I am here for you. Wishing you all the best. emoticon
    1877 days ago
    I would wave a magic wand for all of us if I could! Take care. Hugs
    1877 days ago
    Stop! You are letting your mind run away with negative health thoughts. I sure can understand it but you need to put a limit on how long you plan on panicking. Say to yourself....10 minutes and then think of the most horrible things it could be or how your health is at the moment. Then stop it, you can make a deal with yourself to think about it again in 4 hrs. This way in between you can give yourself a rest.

    This frantic thinking isn't going to change a thing, so what's the point to it. Meditate to get your breath under control, find something you really enjoy and do it. Go to the show so you can free your mind for a couple of hours.
    1877 days ago
    This enlarged thyroid may be a blessing in disguise. Your thyroid can affect your heart and many other organ systems. Taking care of that may take care of your other health issues.

    My youngest (15) had health issues for some time. Something new, something weird. Finally got her vitamin D checked and ever since she's been treated for low vitamin D she's quit taking most of her medications. She feels so much better.

    I hope getting your thyroid checked and taken care of will also take care of your other health issues. I won't tell you not to worry. That's like telling someone not to think about 1 thing and then they think of nothing else.

    Pray for guidence, listen to your body the best you can, and know so many people care about you and will support you no matter what. I pray this 1 thing will tie the rest together and you can be done with it. emoticon
    1878 days ago
    90% of things you worry about, never happen. the other 10% God helps us through.

    I always go through a 20 minute flip out, when something happens and then I start to think logically and calmly about it.
    I calm down by thinking about the positive, as several people have mentioned.

    I also count my blessings and find that helping someone else with something helps to distract me from my worry.

    Worry never helps anything and it only makes the situation worse.

    Prayer is also a wonderful thing and it is good that you are sharing with people so as not to keep it all bottled up.

    I will pray for you, too and continue to think positive.

    Everything will be alright and we are here for you.

    emoticon Chris

    1878 days ago
    First of all take a DEEP BREATH and exhale

    Yes things on the internet can be scary - take it ONE step at a time

    Get the test results
    Discuss the options -
    R E L A X

    and don't thwart your healthy lifestyle

    As a cancer survivor I totally understand EVERY TIME they want to run a test on something out of the ordinary how panic sets in

    I pray and ask people to pray for me as well

    Last year was a terrible year for me medically one thing after another , antibiotics then issues from antibiotics, UTI's killer sinus infections BUT through it all I got through it

    Life can be tough sometimes!

    1878 days ago
    Hang in there!!!! Don't worry until you're told something to worry about. Worry takes its toll on the body, too. I know it's hard not to, but please do try. Do some relaxation techniques, go get a pedicure or manicure, take a walk in a quiet and beautiful place.

    Lean on those around you and try to stay optimistic! Big emoticon !
    1878 days ago
    Well, one bright spot is that you are in a position to get regular medical care. That's not always possible for everyone.

    When I'm in a situation like that, I usually think up the absolutely worst possible scenario - which might be cancer, right? Well, if that is the case, you would be catching it early, and astronomically improving your odds.

    Sorry - I know that sort of thinking doesn't work for everyone. I just find worst-case thinking comforting.

    You could also think "best case" and imagine how that would play out.

    Another positive thing is that you have been working on your health for quite some time now. Things would be much worse if you hadn't been, right? You got a job, too, which has to feel pretty good.

    One of my favorite quotes is “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” It seems particularly apt when one is waiting to hear of test results!

    Sorry you are struggling so much, and I am hoping for lots of good news to come your way.
    1878 days ago
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