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Changed something yesterday!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

I had an interaction with my difficult family member yesterday. I was treated with great disrespect. My normal reaction would be tears followed by some juvenile response but I stopped just long enough to think and called an al-anon member instead. Just talking to someone who already knows everything that goes along with these kinds of situations had me calmed down in five minutes. Then instead of going to the fridge to drown my feelings in food, I hopped on the treadmill and ran for ten minutes.

I had so much less anxiety about the current situation and for the first time recognized that trapped feeling and fought back instead of self destructing. This is a huge victory for me and I am still grateful for it today.

The depression still has me in its grip but I am surprised to find myself doing it differently this time around. Perhaps it will pass more quickly because of it. Until then, I will be thankful for it every day it is here so I can practice making healthy choices despite feeling so lethargic.

I went to the lab today and gave the doc his blood. My appointment is on Thursday and no matter what he sees in my blood, good or bad, I will roll with it and continue to make healthy choices. I am trying not to be anxious. But, I am just the same. I am not sure why I feel like I am going to the principal's office. My doctor is very nice and he really cares about me. Besides, I can show him that I am in the process of changing my habits for the long term. Just because I got off track does not mean I wont keep going forward. I thought about telling him I weighed less but that will only hurt me in the long run as he needs all the facts if he is to care for me properly.

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    I'm so proud of you for taking a bad situation and conquering it! That is fantastic! You are doing amazingly well. Keep up the fantastic work!
    1885 days ago
    For some reason, I feel like a proud Aunt. You are doing so well. I'm glad you found a good support group to help you through the trying times. emoticon
    1886 days ago
    Yeah, the whole "choice" thing... :) It sounds as if you did really well, despite how you felt about it. Good for you!

    Hang in there - small steps, taken as consistently as you can really make you feel more in control, even when things get nuts. I know exactly how you feel, really. We're all trying to make better choices - and we're all succeeding only some of the time. That's where the consistency comes in - not perfection, but consistency.

    You're doing great - keep pushing!

    :) Gail
    1886 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You made awesome choices!!!

    Hope your blood work is ok!!! emoticon
    1886 days ago
    emoticon on a job well done! I'm excited to hear the report from your doctor. I'm sure he'll be understanding and help you work toward your goals. emoticon
    1886 days ago
    So glad that you have good support in your Al Anon buddy, and that you flipped your actions from unhealthy to healthy.

    Every time you flip your action you have won a great victory.

    Well done!

    Your blood work may be the starting point, with your next one showing great improvements, just like your weight will.
    1886 days ago
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    You made some excellent choices in dealing with a difficult issue. Keep tracking a pushing toward a healthier 2013.
    1886 days ago
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    Praying that your blood work turns out ok, but if it doesn't, your SparkBuddies are here for you. emoticon emoticon
    1886 days ago
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