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Tuesday, March 26, 2013

If I am going to look good bald? Because at the rate my mother is going, I am going to pull my hair out. SOON.

SO. Todays they were supposed to put her pic line in her neck. They didn't. She has thrown such a fit over not wanting open heart surgery that she is at risk of giving herself a heart attack from panic. This combined with the kidney issues? Is not good.

At this point, they are sending her back to her nursing facility until her kidneys are functionint well enough, then they are going to put stents in. They can only repair 2 of the 3 valves that way, but it is the only thing she will agree to?! And like I said, she is throwing fits to the point where she is in danger of giving herself a heart attack.

When I was a child, had I acted the way she IS acting-I would have gotten a thorough spanking!! I feel sorry for my sister having to deal with her.

Since mom is pulling the crap she is, I told her I'm not putting her dog to sleep and burying it with her. I told her it was ridiculously selfish and I won't do it. She wasn't too happy when I told her "it's not like you're the Queen of England or anything". Yeah. Tough. She can just be mad. I'm not happy with the constant misbehavior and excuses for it.

I am SO glad Hubs and I didn't put ourselves in a financial bind to go out there this week! I would like to be able to stop reacting and worry when she comes up with all this drama, but about the time I do that, you know what's going to happen. I'm better off dealing with stress now than regrets or guilt later.

It's nice that my sister is dealing with her. It let's me say what needs to be said to my mother without my sister having to be the one to say it. I'm at the point in my life where if my mother wants to be po'd at me for being honest, that's just too dang bad. I'm trying really hard to focus on what my dad would expect of me. And right now, she is WAY beyond what he would expect me to be nice about.

I am being respectful, please don't misunderstand. When I vent here, it is different than when I talk to her. She is my mother, and I do love her. She just is just hard to like. Where I try very hard to always make sure that I tell her I love her before I tell her the way it is and not be mean or hurtful, she doesn't. It's complicated.

Anyway, enough about mom. I got on my scale today. 284! Woohooo! Which means the water gain from stopping the water pills has finally flushed back out. Very happy about that. Now, if I can just start remembering to log in and track things...
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    1857 days ago
    I think you're doing amazingly well dealing with all this, especially since you have to do so from a distance. The unfortunate reality is that people we love still have the right to refuse medical treatment. It's so frustrating and sad, but what you can do = what you are doing. You're a good daughter. emoticon

    Congrats on the weight loss! Ahhh, it feels.great when that water comes off! Now *stop snowing, Wisconsin,* so Seni can go to the pool!! emoticon
    1857 days ago
    Relax.Have a nice day
    1857 days ago
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