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Wondering if I can get a handle on all of this...

Monday, March 25, 2013

I went for my run right after work tonight. Took Lulu. My mp3 player died just under half way though. Now I've got to find the charging cable. I don't know why, but this one is always a problem for me. I can never seem to find it. And it's not just a regular usb cable. No, that would make my life far too easy.

Anyhow, I got home stressed. When I'm stressed, I'm angry. Hubby heard me stressing out as I was stumbling around the place.

He came out of the tub stressed. He wouldn't say anything, but I pulled it out of him. He was upset because I got home from my run so stressed out.

Ten minutes later, endorphins started to kick in. I was acting silly and was able to cheer hubby up. But it didn't last too long. It really struck me. I'm only stressing hubby out. I get that I'm stressed out and angry all the time lately. But if it's going to do the same to hubby, something's gotta give.

I can't do this to him. He's a generally happy person. Even in the mornings. I've never seen a happier person in my life.

However, I'm changing that. I don't like that.

I just don't know how to change it. If I'm stressed and angry, I vent. I don't keep it inside. I don't pretend it's not there. If I even try to, it only gets worse.

I guess I've seen this coming for a while now. He's a clean freak - I'm not. I'm not a complete slob, but I sure do tend to go that way. He has no concept of depression - I'm a walking ball of depression these days.

Any suggestions? The "pretend it's not that way" or "just don't get angry" won't work. I don't know what to do.

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    When I didn't know how to manage what I was eating, I never was satisfied and became stressed, frustrated, snappy. Then a fellow sparker made a quick reference to a free e-book at

    Everything changed after that. I downloaded the book. read it. Started adding in fiber foods slowly, and within a week I wasn't always hungry. The 2nd week I wasn't EVER hungry, and I've continued with that until I'm consuming over 40 g fiber daily.

    You're going to have to check it out. But could this be the source of your problem? If yes, then it's EASY to fix it.

    Otherwise, you MUST figure out the source of your stress and fix that problem.

    I'd recommend the Fly Lady team for housework woes and the depression that ensues. That shiny sink is a miracle fix!!

    And finally, I just found out my thyroid score is WAY high which means my thyroid is not working which can cause dry skin, slow metabolism, depression, weight gain, hair loss, fatigue, and more.

    So, have you had a physical lately with the bloodwork that goes with it? Deficiencies, hormone imbalance, ??? could be the cause of what your are experiencing.
    1911 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/27/2013 8:51:56 AM
  • FIT4MEIN2013
    Fortunately dh and I seem to be 'off' schedule so we don't stress at the same time. Exercise should relieve much of the stress, but for some reason, that isn't happening for you. Do you enjoy running or are you making yourself do it, causing yourself more stress? emoticon
    1912 days ago
    You know, the "happiest" I have ever felt in my life is when I was taking estrogen, and the worst I have ever felt in my life is when I was plunged into menopause after a hysterectomy... There IS something to this mid-life minus-the-hormones syndrome... It is very real. ...and it is very treatable if that is the cause of unexplained sadness.

    Because of my medical history, I can no longer take hormone supplements, but I have found a wonderful natural supplement called Estroven. It is natural, and it is packed with vitamins and herbs. I buy the store brand, which is simply called a Menopause Supplement. It is considerably cheaper than the name brand.

    I can tell a WORLD of difference when it is in my system, and when it is not. ...So can my family -- so I consider it unfair of me not to take care of this issue.

    My MP3 player hasn't been holding its charge much lately, either. When it goes out, I sing :)

    Hang in there! emoticon
    1912 days ago
    1st off ...YOU are NOT responsible for how HE feels....try writing your thoughts down, free form don't worry about punctuation or spelling anything, just what is going on inside you. It helps to "get rid " of what is causing your anger, and just might give you some answers... also hopefully you are getting some help for yourself . emoticon
    1912 days ago
  • CDCSMITH2013
    I think some of it, is just trying to find a de-stresser that works for you. See if there is a pattern to your stress and if there is a way to diffuse it without venting around your husband.
    1912 days ago
    Perhaps some of the stress-relieving techniques of the Stress Busting
    Team could help....
    1912 days ago
  • JUSTME29

    My hubby and I are the same way. If one of us is down the other is sure to follow. I only wished it went the other way as easily.
    1912 days ago
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