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Week of Failure & Apathy

Monday, March 25, 2013

Things have been very difficult lately..

The team that I work with has been very tumultuous. I used to escape things through my studies but all of a sudden have lost interest. My work for has been so surprisingly disinterested in my professional development and are blocking me at every turn in a recent request for mentoring. So what does Jane do when she feels apathetic.. ? She eats and sleeps a lot .. hides away like it's winter and time to hibernate. I feel like I've been hit with a bat and I can't quite resurface. I need to get out and take that walk and shake it off. Drink WATER and eat right and just stick to my plan no matter how difficult others try and make it for me. Sometimes life is just hard. THis is one of those times. Just get out there Jane you can do this! emoticon emoticon emoticon YOU CAN!
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    I just had one of those weeks. Sometimes others are so caught up in their own problems that they really aren't able to see how much they are adding to the problems of others. (Sometimes they sort of know, but don't allow themselves to FEEL it. Sometimes they don't have a clue.) All we can do if we protest once or twice is to keep doing what we know is the right thing and hope it comes out well eventually.

    It IS hard. I like to know where I am going - with some spontenaity and frivolity INSIDE the framework of a master plan. I like other people to RESPECT that master plan.

    Do you feel similarly?

    A few months ago a group of three young-ish (younger than I am, anyway) men were heckling me every day at the college where I tutored - to the point where my reputation was being sullied. I finally talked to each of them individually. ("Have I done something to annoy or offend you, because...") I was surprised to realize last week that I was now on friendly terms with all three of them. I'm not even sure how exactly the change happened, but I did win their respect. I think the one on one talks began it.

    You, Jane, do know what you need to feel good about yourself. Live that. The bigger question - like whether you need to have a head on collision (rather than just a quiet talk) with coworkers or a boss - maybe you don't know right now. But you know what moral is, and how to behave decently towards yourself and towards others. Do those things until that question is answerable.
    1880 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/27/2013 1:35:11 AM
    emoticon I am sorry things are not going well for you lately.. Hang in there you are such a wonderful person and I know you can get out of this rough spot.
    1881 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    It's hard to retrain and rethink your own mindset. I'm constantly having to be mindful of what I actually control as opposed to what I think I control, and realize that there are plenty of things not in my purview. That said, when I get up in the morning I make a deliberate decision to be happy and positive for my own mental health's sake. If I do have a downer time or day, then I allow myself five minutes of wallowing/pity me time complete with timer and when it goes off - I have to be done. Then I get on with my day.

    Do what you gotta do for your own sake - so you're a happy Jane!

    1882 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/25/2013 3:37:31 PM
    Sorry to hear that you're going through a rough patch. emoticon

    You're strong enough to make it through! emoticon
    1882 days ago
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