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This weekend has not been good

Sunday, March 24, 2013

I'm not having a very good weekend. It's been stressful, and my ability to resist my own self-sabotage has apparently hit the floor.

No, I'm not flagellating myself for this, more just reporting it for accountability purposes.

There's a few factors at play here, and I'll start from least important to most.

1) My scale is broken. I can't replace it right now, but I had to throw it away because my idiotic cat knocked it off. Don't worry, I didn't kill the cat, although the thought crossed my mind. I can still measure (and do) but I'm frustrated because I"m having to eyeball my portions, and I don't like it.

2) The kids have been running amok because it's been raining. I'm normally the sort of mom that banishes them to the outside on active days.

3) Spring break started. I don't get a kid-break for a week. I am dreading this summer. Next week we are stupidly busy, to the point where we opted to stay home from church and other activities today as a rest day to prepare for the blitz of activity next week.

4) As I detailed in my previous blog, work has been INSANE. The worst seems to be over, but I do have to be vigilant and make sure that these kids are safe and have someone to talk to.

5) I have been mostly alone, because my husband's grandmother has been in the hospital in critical condition, and he's been with her. I DO NOT begrudge him this, nor do I blame him, but it just makes things harder to deal with. I think a lot of my good behavior is to set a good example for him. ;) When he's not around, there's only myself to impress! And I'm a terrible audience.

I reached for an old trigger snack for me, lays cheddar chips and jalapeno cheddar dip. Ick. I have stayed away from it, because I know I can't control myself, but t his time, I did it.

And ate the whole can. ;) The good thing is, it' the dip I crave, not the chips, but this is not something I should bring in my house. I'm not a fan of deprivation, but this isn't something I can control.

No, I'm not really seeking advice. I know where to go from here. I have a plan, and I'm back on it today. I just get annoyed at myself when I do this. So I figure posting it here will help keep me accountable, and remind you guys that I may be brilliant, but I ain't perfect. ;)
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    I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a rough week. I'm sure it's not easy to manage the house, work and keep the kids occupied when it's raining and spring vacation is coming up. Everyone has cabin fever ! That sort of stress would cause us all to lunge for comfort foods, but it sounds like you're managing nicely.

    Regarding the scale, you can always use the "rule of palm" method to measure your food. A serving of meat or fish is roughly the size of your palm. You should have 3-4 palms of veggies on your plate. rice/pasta, one palm. somewhere there is a palm listing on the web. I'll have to see if I can find it.

    Remember, studies have shown that people who have pets have lower rates of stress ! At least, they are supposed to.


    1913 days ago
    Honesty with one's self and others is a very good character trait. It will also continue to help you reach any of the goals you set. I know you know what you need to do, just as I do and many of our friends do. It's the doing that is sometimes difficult or disrupted. You'll bounce back, just reassess your options and priorities and work it girl.
    1913 days ago
    It's great that you recognize your issues and have a plan to fix. Things will always get in the way; it's how we deal with the aftermath that's important. Good luck!

    P.S. Glad the cat lives. emoticon

    1913 days ago
  • CLARK971
    hang in there!

    i love how you refer to things as "trigger foods" and not bad foods. I think that is a great way to look at food.
    1913 days ago

    Just try to not let yourself get so run down taking care of everyone else that you fall apart. (and if you figure out how to do that, please share the secret! emoticon )
    1914 days ago
    I feel your pain, especially about the dip :) I agree that deprivation is bad news, so maybe instead of having chips with the dip, compromise with using red/green pepper strips or carrots to dip it in? Yeah, it's not as tasty, but at least it is a better way to "indulge".

    Anyway, thanks for sharing :)
    1915 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    a couple of my favorite quotes (or song lyrics, in the case of Leonard Cohen):

    Forget your perfect offering
    There is a crack in everything
    That's how the light gets in.
    ~~Leonard Cohen

    "If you're not making mistakes, then you're not doing anything. I'm positive that a doer makes mistakes.”
    ~~ John Wooden

    1915 days ago
    It's good to stay accountable and not hide the 'bad' parts. Everyone makes mistakes and has errors in judgement sometimes. But rather than hiding that you did something you probably shouldn't have done, you owned up to it, asked yourself why you did it, and are working on ways to prevent it from happening in the future. That's really the best that can be expected. (And far better than letting 1 slip-up ruin all forward progress.)

    You definitely have a lot of little bumps lately, added to the mountain you're dealing with (your husband's bad judgements and finally seeking help). You shouldn't expect yourself to be perfect through all that. You can hope and you can try, and that's what you're doing. So here's a pat on the back for doing your best and continuing to push forward.

    BTW, is it raining really bad or just moderate? Because unless it's hail, freezing rain, pouring rain, cold temperatures, or flooding concerns, maybe you can let them run outside for a lap or two around the house. I've spent plenty of time outside in the rain as a kid/teen/young adult and was better off for it. Of course that's excluding the extreme conditions, but still. What kid doesn't enjoy trying to run between the raindrops? If it's muddy outside cut a garbage bag open and lay it flat so as soon as they come in the muddy boots and clothes go onto the plastic and right into the washer.
    1915 days ago
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