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Day Eleven: Being a "fat head"

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

One thing that I struggle with -- and I know other overweight people who have admitted to the same thing --- is an irrational fear that I won't be able to take the weight off no matter what I do.

Hey, intellectually, I know this is not true. Mentally, I know it's irrational! But that doesn't stop negative thoughts from bubbling up from my subconscious--thoughts that include, "You'll never lose weight so why bother;" or "You're post-menopausal with hypothyroid issues, this is a lost cause, just accept the fat."

If I stay with it long enough and lose some weight, this negativity dies down quite a bit, but for right now, it's annoying. Today was one of those days where I had this annoying, backseat driver voice offering negative opinions all day long.

Ugghhhh! Glad the day is over! I managed to get through it without overeating, but just barely. It took every bit of self-control that I could muster not to go into a class one pig out!

Tomorrow is another day! Hopefully it will be better than today!
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    JuJu is absolutely right! Don't listen to them. If I were you I would just look at the beautiful photo of you when you were at your goal weight and remember how that felt. There is no reason why you can't experience those feelings again in this next chapter of your life. Just imagine how much more enjoyment you can have with those amazing grandchildren of yours, or how much easier it would be to work in your garden. The benefits will be endless. You can do this! We can do this! Remember us tall girls need to stick together!
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    1887 days ago
    Thank you Juju! emoticon
    1887 days ago
    You must not listen to the bad voices.

    One thing that I love about SparkPeople is the inspirational & motivational members. Every evening before bedtime, I log in & look for some inspiration. Be it blogs, motivational quotes or even a quick recipe for a busy day ahead.

    Please don't be so hard on yourself. It takes time to make changes in your life.
    You're worth it!!


    1887 days ago
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