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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

I always thought that I could handle stress well. I still think I do, but I now also realize that it takes more of a toll on me than I thought.

Things started with retirement. That's a happy stress, right? I had planned, my husband and I had talked about it, and it was the "right time" if there is such a thing. Then my husband had a heart attack. It was two days after my last day at work. I spent the next week or two running back and forth to the hospital and then going with him to rehab. I think at that point, he began resenting my retirement. Another level of stress...not as happy.

Things improved for a while, until I had issues and had to have stents put in my legs. I made a concerted effort to improve my lifestyle, and a month later, I was asked to go back to work for 6 weeks to cover for a maternity leave. It lasted 5 months. That was good. A little extra money and was doing better. I finished work on a Friday.

Three days later, Monday following my re-retirement, my husband needed some minor outpatient surgery, and he ended up hospitalized for 2 weeks. While he was in the hospital, I was diagnosed with cancer. Okay. More stress. But somehow I didn't feel as stressed as I "should" be. I prayed a lot, and I put it all in God's hands, and I think I did pretty well handling it all.

I had treatments for the cancer and was finally cancer-free, although I have to continue maintenance treatments for 2 years. Finally! A little less stress.

Then my 94 year old father became ill and died. Oh, oh. Stress again...

I finally think I'm back on track and dealing with life, and now my husband needs another heart cath. and I don't know where that will lead. That's tomorrow and of course, I'm stressed.

So what's my point in writing the story of my last year and a half? While my intentions were good in changing my lifestyle, and I did eat better and I did exercise, I gained weight.

I guess it's just that though it all, I've given in to the urges to eat, but I've told myself that I tried to do it in a half healthy way.

Lately, I haven't given up stress-eating completely. However, I found that limited portions of even the richest food or sweetest dessert helps soothe the frazzled nerves (although I still know that eating is not a good way to deal with stress) and while I may not be losing weight by having it fall off, I am at least still losing--just way more slowly.

As I said before. I realize that eating is not a good way to deal with stress. I've read all the articles on this site and more. So, I have been exercising more. I like dealing with stress that way, but I find that running to and fro from doctor to doctor and from one side of thee state to another doesn't lend itself well to a regular gym time.

That's why I like the idea of 10 minutes a day or more if I can get it in. 10 minutes for me, for my health, for my stress.

10 minutes...it helps take the stress out of getting in fitness time.

I forgot to say thanks to those of you who commented and for the encouraging words. I guess I didn't realize that all my ramblings might be of interest to someone else.
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    I'm not a pro - but it seems like you are handling your eating/exercising in a reasonable fashion. Slow loss is better than giving up. I wish we could actually take the stress out of everyone's life that we come in contact with, and always have the right words to say. Good for you for the 10 minutes!

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