I can't believe I ate the whole thing BECAUSE I DIDN'T

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Hold on to your hats ladies and gentlemen. I'd like to introduce myself as someone who has always wanted to find my own way to do things. I wanted to learn to read before I went to kindergarten so I could learn the way I wanted. Of course this is not the easiest way to go through life and I am catching on most of the time that using the help that's offered is often the easier way to go. So joining Sparks has been a real education. I love the opportunity to encourage other people, to enjoy the successes and feel compassion when things turn out less than what they were hoping for. But for me to be willing to submit to someone else's arbitrary calorie assessments for my choices was a little too much. But on the other hand to watch my little character not even budge on the weight loss tracker even though my fitness level has made a big increase was frustrating. But was it frustrating enough? And how could I have any credibility if I haven't lost any weight?
I saw a quote on a SP page that said "Courage is not having no fear. It is finding something else that is worth more than your fear." What if I try to control my calories and fail? I will disappoint this anonymous person/computer, other people paying attention to me on the site, but most of all me. So why should I use the help offered to me?
My choices are: to remain the same, encouraging and to continue gaining a little weight every year. Or, drop out, feel like crap and get depressed. Or, bite the bullet (how many calories?) and get my caloric intake under control. That's when I read the quote about courage. It's time to be courageous. I'm more afraid of depression and getting obese than failure.

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    I find it amazing that you want to learn things in your own way. This is often times a good thing. When you make mistakes, you not only know what not to do, but also why it doesn't work. Likewise, once you've got that thing figured out, you know what to do and EXACTLY why it works.

    You are your own unique person. A computer/person, or even a trainer, can give you advice and the tips that work for them. But you have to figure out what works for you. Calorie count is not as important as what those calories are made of. For instance, I have started this challenge and for the last 4 days I have gone over my calorie count; however, I have lost 4 lbs since Sunday because the majority of the time I am eating fairly healthy.

    Screw the scale!! It's about your energy levels, the fit of your clothing, confidence, and health. The scale can be discouraging and I honestly don't find it necessary. There are people that are my same weight but way bigger or smaller than I am (roughly same height).

    What I'm saying (I guess lol) is to stay encouraged and continue to push irregardless of whether or not you feel what you're doing is "good enough." Please do not put too much pressure on yourself. And if you need to, start slow. Find a good support group (or person) and try to work together if you can.

    YOU CAN DO THIS! YOU REALLY CAN! No need to be depressed. We all mess up and fall. The key is to get back up and keep it moving!

    Wish you the best!
    1918 days ago
    I like doing things on my own as well, but have found more motivation with the help of SP & fitbit emoticon
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    Woo Hoo!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1918 days ago
    I too, like doing things my own way! Good for you for biting the bullet! emoticon
    1918 days ago
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