End of self-sabotauge?
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
This may very well end up being a babble of free thinking time. I apologize in advance
Last week I learned there was a chance I would be laid off and the news was delivered with a lack of information and insensitivity. I felt sucker punched and the emotions just came pouring in from that point on. As an emotional eater it was a true challenge. Identifying the feeling, understanding where it came from, and being OKAY in it. Better yet, knowing *I* would be okay. No matter what.
It looks simple but at the time it was quite overwhelming. I felt vulnerable and rejected. Anxious over the potential of losing half of my family's income. The impact of it on my family. Some excitement at the prospect of a new path in life. Some fears- are they looking to dump me for someone more intelligent/educated/credentia
led/etc. It also coincided with my 23 year old son having surgery on his knee.
I found solace by taking control of healthy things in my life. I paid attention to my diet, made sure I tracked nutrition and held myself accountable. I kept exercising, gave myself emotional/mental/physical space, expressed my needs to others, and did not let it effect my work. Wowsa! Does this indicate I may be a reformed emotional eater?
Whatever it is, it is healthy. For once, I can take pride in my actions and actually see positive ACTIONS instead of intellectualization and indulgence.