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Reflection 3/13-3/19

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

WI: up 1.6 lbs today...not what I wanted to see. So what is it...stress, depression, not eating right, not being consistent, not working out to my full potential? You guessed it...ALL of the above. The last time I weighed this weight I was giving birth! I am miserable. I just can't seem to snap out of it. But that's it. I have to get strict again on myself. So today I will be revisiting and revising my goals and program. Setting up a calendar of what workouts I will do each day. I need to go to the grocery store so I am going to set down and really plan out meals and my list. I have to get back on track. If I keep going the way I am going I will be the heaviest I have ever been. So here we go again...

You all know that school is one of my stressors. Well DH and I have decided that we need a bigger home. Currently in a 2 bedroom and the kids are at the age they now need their own rooms. I have looked into USDA loans for low-mid income families and not just waiting to hear if we have been prequalified. In order for us to take on a mortgage I have to go back to work part time. So things are about to get real interesting. I am trying to just apply for jobs and if its meant to be then things will fall into place...but me the worry wart cannot seem to stop doing this to myself.

So for awhile now I have been feeling depressed. Before it wasn't bad and I could just cop it up to stress and it didn't affect my daily life...well it is starting to now. Not sure how to snap myself out of it. And not sure if its the weight, stress, or what or maybe its just everything. Maybe its just genetics?? I don't know...

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  • 4CYNDI
    It sounds to me like you have a lot of change going on. Most of it is good change, but that still adds stress. BIBO (as we say on the Island, breathe in breathe out). Take it one step at a time. You are taking the steps you can towards your goals. I know it sounds trite but making small steps every day will lead to progress. You can do this!
    1886 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Try to take retrospect of your life weigh your options and see which side will benefit you and the family the most for now, it is hard trying to manage all life has to throw at you which in turn causes major stress that takes a toil on you physically as well as mentally i,m praying that you will see the emoticon brighter side soon..... emoticon
    1888 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I don't know what to tell you. You've got a lot on your plate, and you're not about to get any less busy it sounds like. If you're close to done with school can you put off the move for a few more months until you do finish? That way you can finish school before you have to go back to work, and then you can use your new degree to get a better job. If that's not an option, then I just wish you the best in trying to juggle everything. Sometimes I wish we got fitness points for all the juggling we do in our lives.
    1888 days ago
    You really have a lot going on! I hope that things turn out for the best. How many classes or semesters do you have to take until you graduate? It sounds as if you don't need anything else to cope with. I hope you put taking care of yourself as a top priority.
    1888 days ago
    I don't have any answers, so I'll just send hugs and prayers!! Take care of yourself - when you have so much going on, especially when you have children, its easy to put your own needs on the back burner. Don't do that to yourself - you are important too!! emoticon
    1888 days ago
    Hugs to you...you have a lot going on right now! I know owning is best; but, my first thought was maybe renting a bigger house (until school is done) would be more affordable and less stress for the whole family. Regardless, hang in there!
    1889 days ago
    Depression can creep up on you when you least expect it, look after yourself hun and go for lots of walks in the fresh air - it's a surefire tonic. Trust me I know..
    You got through a dark spell before and you'll get through this one, I'm here if you need to offload emoticon
    1889 days ago
  • MAGGIE101857
    You have an awful lot on your platter and it sounds like you are adding even more! I know that feeling; sometimes life just keeps piling it on. You are not alone in your struggles, my emoticon

    1889 days ago
    There's nothing wrong with you. You're just trying to cope with family life's stresses. And that's a big, demanding and unstoppable battle! Try to focus on one thing at a time and, if possible, try to find a few moments for yourself.
    As for the weight issues, you're still here. That means you haven't given up on yourself and your attempts. You just have to get into the right mindset again and do what you have to do. Be patient with yourself and focus on small steps each day. But don't even think about giving up!
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    1889 days ago
    Changes in your life are adding to your stress, no doubt.
    All you can do is sit and make a plan, then wake up each morning and decide to succeed for ONE day. That day's success WILL lead to another, and if it doesn't, start anew the next day. Good luck to you, and never, never, never give up! emoticon
    1889 days ago
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