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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I wasn’t certain what to write about today. I have a sweatshirt story but didn’t feel right. I could complain as people who know better are REALLY driving me crazy. But that can be summed up quite easily – I don’t BS and you know it! I’m blunt and I’m going to tell it like it is (or at least from my perspective). If this offends you, you want a “nice” answer, or you don’t want me to possibly point out the obvious – don’t ask me the question! Duh! That just seems short and may-haps a bit snarky!

Then I actually LOOKED at what was cycling on my computer screen. The quote that was up at the moment was:

Now that makes me think. See even though I'm talking a good talk here, deep down I'm mad at myself. Mad that I regained 13 lbs. Mad that I have no willpower over Cadbury eggs. Mad that I'm not doing as much as I KNOW I'm capable of. And I've been using some of those words during my internal dialog. Why?

I was going to write about seeing my closest friend for the first time in a few weeks. We went for a walk and then gave up because it was cold. She was berating herself the entire time about how much weight she gained and I felt like a wimp for giving in to the cold. Why?

Now someone might have all the pyscho-babble about nurture and habits and training. Yeah ok, maybe. I hated my psych class and Freud is just a type of slip (that is usually quite funny to everyone around you). All of that does NOTHING for me. I swear if you dig far enough you can fine a way to blame your mom's first boyfriends dog. BLECH!

Remember that comment up top about being blunt - here it comes. We do it because we are chicken! We put ourselves down because if we told the truth we would have to admit that we know our greatness. We know we have strength and power. We know we are awesome. And if we admit that, we have NO ONE to blame but ourselves. WE have to take full responsibility for who we are and where we are at in life. OUCH!!!

As humans we also use a lot of if--,then-- statements. If I was pretty, then everyone would like me. Yeah that's a big stinking pile of cow dung! Most of our if--,then-- statements are. They make no sense or they rely on measuring the un-measurable. Good grief.

You know what we all have our niche and in that place we are pretty, valuable, intelligent, a winner, superior, healthy, loved, and happy. Admit it and you can achieve anything.

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    don´t know weather this will help you or not kitty but i read the other day that you can now get dark chocolate cabury cream eggs.and we all know how healthy dark chocolate is for us emoticon
    1917 days ago
    Love you blogs. and so very true. Are on Truth hurts doesn't it sometimes.
    1921 days ago
    So true, so beautiful.
    1921 days ago
    You are great, you are who you are!

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    1921 days ago
    I agree to a certain extent. What your parents did or didn't do to you or whatever while bringing you up has an effect on you one way or another. I am not a fan of Freud. I thought he was a bit of whack job. While what our parents do or don't do while bringing us up has an effect on us ultimately we are responsible for our own thoughts and actions. My mom, dad and sister all acted like I was handicapped and disabled because I am legally blind in one eye. They acted like I was fragile flower that had to be protected and was incapable of doing pretty much anything. I have done everything I can to try to change their views of me but that has happened. I was the first one in my family to go to college. When my mom and her fiancee were here we took them canoeing and I whipped my mom's a$$ at it but she still views me as handicapped and a fragile flower. It pisses me off but at this point in my life I don't see that her views ever changing of me. I don't blame her or my dad or anyone else in my family for anything I do or don't do though. I am the one that chooses whether to do something or not. In the end, I am the one that is responsible for my own thoughts and actions. Yes, I have negative self talk from time to time, who doesn't (?), but that has nothing to do with how my mom raised me. That's just a part of being human.
    1922 days ago
    Promise me you will always be blunt with the truth, even if it hurts! I would rather be hurt with the truth than trying to figure out lies only to be hurt later. Today, at my morning yoga class, the theme was "commitment and letting go". I'm not sure if this theme was for them or me, most likely both.

    I need to "re commit" to my weight loss journey and let go of the little things (and they are little) that are holding me back.

    Judith Lastater (a yoga master) once wrote "Humans experience really only two emotions --
    Fear and Love. I have been living in a world of fear - fear of not being good enough, not looking nice enough, not saying doing the "right" thing. I need to let go of that and make a commitment to myself that I am lovable just the way I am! AND, so are you! emoticon
    1922 days ago
    emoticon blog and so true! I tried this last night when I was on the treadmill. When my negative talk kicked in, I immediately thought is this how I would coach a friend who was struggling. Nope! So I was much kinder to myself and I talked about my greatness, not my weakness.

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    1922 days ago
  • STHAX10
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    1922 days ago
    WOW! What passion! I am eating it up! I feel like you just doused me with a bucket of cold water! Awesome blog!

    1922 days ago
    I call that a "BURN"!
    1922 days ago
    I need to ponder that. I have not paid much attention to my inner dialogue lately... I have found some troubling signs returning -- insomnia, sore back, not exercising as intensely... hmmm.... thanks. This helps.
    1922 days ago
  • MLH148
    Wasn't sure where this would go but so worth reading. Thanks
    1922 days ago
    emoticon blog! emoticon emoticon
    1922 days ago
    Good post, Kitty
    1922 days ago
  • LANA2520
    so true
    1922 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    I needed that - thank you
    1922 days ago
    Great blog. That first picture is so true! I definitely need to remember that.
    1922 days ago
    Kitty, I think you're spot on! It is sooooo much easier to blame everyone and everything around us than to admit our greatness and realize that WE'RE responsible for our slip ups. With that said, then we have to learn the fine art of forgiving ourselves. It is again so much easier to forgive someone else their transgressions (usually) than to forgive ourselves when we flub up.

    Lots of thoughtful material here and thank you for this blog! Helps us adjust our psychological glasses when we look at ourselves and realize . . . HEY! I AM great! But I am human so have to learn from mistakes.

    1922 days ago
    Cluck, cluck!
    1922 days ago
    blame ! I'm sick and tired of blame. my mom used to blame me for everything when I was little , rain , her bad mood , nothing I did was good enough. I am responsible but I do all what I can and I do a pretty good job. I hate Freud too , just because he had an obsession he didn't have to put in on the shoulders of all humanity
    1922 days ago
    Love your blog and agree! I think a lot of us got started on this ride of putting ousrelves down when we were young and being taught that it wasn't nice to think too highly of ourselves, or it was being "prideful." However, there is nothing wrong with having a healthy self-esteem and respect for oneself. Even Jesus in the Bible told us to love others AS we love OURSELVES (Mark 12:30-31).
    1922 days ago
    Yep, I am chicken, I've always known it. You are right Kitty! I hope I can beat the chicken right out of me. Today is a success, tomorrow I hope for the same. Great blog.
    1923 days ago
  • OPTIMIST1948
    Love it. Especially love the first picture!
    1923 days ago
  • 1EMMA2011
    You are completely right on! Completely!

    Fear of success holds us back from our dreams!!

    Thanks Kitty for such a FANTASTIC Blog!!

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    1923 days ago
    Very true, and it's hard to teach yourself to actually take responsibility for things, but it's very true. We don't want to offend someone, we don't want to have to face something, but deep down, we're scared.
    1923 days ago
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