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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Well I have resigned myself to the thought that this weight loss journey is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I mean, let's think about this for a minute: it's been over 15 years and it's not happening! It's so much easier to just eat what I want, when I want, how much I want. It's WORK to eat right. I don't like work, never have.

I am now forced into the situation where if I don't do something, there's NO HOPE that my pain will ever go away. I am not kidding myself, I know there are no promises that once I dump this weight my pain will clear up, I understand that. But I have to try. Now I have this double whammy against me. I have to try. No more pissing around. I am scared.

Hell, I can't do food shopping without collapsing afterwards! This is no way to live. I could sit here and cry about it, but who would listen? Who would do something about it? No one.

I can feel my thoughts starting to fall apart, so I am going to stop here.

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    I feel your frustration. I feel good about the weight I've lost (so far)...but it's been 6 years! I never expected it to be so long. But it is what it is, and I'm better off than I was, and I'm going to be better yet. GOING TO BE. Absolutely. Discouraged and disgusted along the way, but going there, at whatever pace works.

    Don't lose faith. You can do it. Try not to overwhelm yourself with how much further you want to go; just take this moment - decide for this instance how you're going to choose. Let tomorrow come in its own time. You can't control any of that, but you can make good choices moment to moment.

    Believe me, I totally understand what you're saying about being exhausted just from grocery shopping. Get a new perspective: try it from the electric carts some stores offer. Try getting to stores without being able to lift your left knee to get in or out of the car. I *WISH* I could walk around a store.,,however slowly, and however tiring it is. I'm tired anyway, and that's primarily just having to load/unload myself from the car! What a way to live. sheesh

    Give yourself the space to succeed at your own pace. You will make it. We're all works in progress, and not all our paths travel the same terrain. You can do it. Hang in there. "Who will listen"? *WE WILL* Here we are, listening and cheerleading. And sometimes a good cry is a way to convert pity to pissed off! LOL Get mad. Don't let things stand in your way.

    1919 days ago
    You're allowed to be scared. (((hugs)))
    1919 days ago
    I know it is hard. I went years yoyo dieting, but I also got to the point where I had to do something. It can be a scary place, but there is motivation in that. I've made good progress, but I've also slipped up on occasion. All you can do is learn from it and get back to your healthier ways. Good luck, especially with easing your pain.
    1919 days ago
    emoticon and yes it's hard, but I try to think that I'll never regret it! You can too! Just start over. There's no shame in that. We all do it! It just takes 10 min. of your day with any exercise that gets your heart moving more. Just start with that and increase after a week or two. We're all in the same boat... emoticon When we feel so lost, this is the place to come and you're doing it. We all have the same mission! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1920 days ago
    You have a huge support system by being a part of sparkpeople. There are people who will listen when you are struggling. Who will help motivate you, inspire you, and be there the way you need them to be... now, Who would do something about it you ask? You can do something about it! You can change your own life, and though it will take time, and work, will have bumps in the road. You can do it! If you don't like the road your heading down, then change directions and work toward the direction you want to go. Nothing is impossible! Believe in yourself!
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    One step at a time! emoticon
    1920 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2013 12:32:16 PM
    Yes, it's hard. But you've come this far; don't give up! Changing everything at once is almost always overwhelming so take baby steps. Make small changes one step at a time.

    Just say: I can do this! (It's hard and you may not feel like it right now but just saying it will make you feel better). Hang in there!

    1920 days ago
    Yes it is hard and no one can do this for us so take it in little steps one at a times because we didn't get this way over night so it will take time to undo what we've done, but you can do it. Yes it will get done. emoticon emoticon emoticon


    When you were a baby you could'nt run it took time. It will take time and any tthing
    worth while takes work and time. Keep on working on you.
    1920 days ago
    You can do it. Anything worth doing takes effort.
    1920 days ago
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