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Goodbye Mommy....I love you so!

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

My last day with my Mommy was Tuesday 2.26.13. I went to the Dollar Store and Drug store for her. Did some cleaning, got the trash out and at 12:15 or so told her….
“I don’t want to go home but I guess I will. Come hug me bye bye. I kissed her cheek, sang… I need to kiss you, ‘cuz I’m gonna miss you when I’m gone”….Told her I love you Mommy…she said love you too Baby…within hours, she would be gone…on home with Jesus.
I’d brought her to Abilene on Monday the 25th to Dr. White’s office…she was playing around with the wheelchair some in the room, rolling around. Smiling, laughing…She got badly chilled as it was a very cold, windy and wet day and I had her in and out three times by the time we got home. She got sick when we got home, wasn’t up to eating dinner, tho she did later when I had a snack.
After her appointment, as I was getting her back in the car, she said “I sure am a lot of trouble”. I said NO…Mommy, you are NOT…every day I have with you is a blessing and Jesus gives me the strength to do what I need to do to help you”…
She was still feeling really bad Tuesday, and I was so uncomfortable, leaving her to come home. God knew what was coming though, and needed me out of the way so He could do what He needed to.
I called her when I got home, around 1:30….said “Sugar Baby, this is Sugar Britches and I’m home now”…we laughed…said I love you, and as always I’d said “take care of my little mama”…
The visiting nurse came out later….then when I called back at 6:00 PM to check on her, there was no answer. Since she’d fallen on Sunday, I feared she had again…I left a message saying “if I don’t hear from you in 10 minutes, I’m calling for help”…I hung up, and immediately God said “don’t wait”….so I called the sheriff’s office to have the EMT’s go check on her, and she was already gone. She’d had one last fall, tried to get the phone…and she was gone quickly.
I found paperwork on her bed, and she’d checked her sugar at 5:20 PM, I called at 6:00…and help was there shortly after…so she wasn’t alone long and for that I am so thankful.
The week before, she’d said “I hope I don’t ever have to go back to the hospital again”….God answered that prayer.
I loved her and miss her so very much, but am so glad she’s no longer suffering……..she took care of business and therefore took care of me…in having her funeral prepaid, a will in order etc. I am very thankful for her wisdom and foresight in doing so. It made the final work easier and lifted a big burden from my so tired shoulders.
God is mighty, merciful and loving and I praise Him for the gift of my time with mama…every extra day I had her was a blessing….I love Him with my whole heart and will now get on with the business of taking care of Brenda. His grace sustains me in the dark times, when my heart is heavy and sorrow overtakes me. He is my Rock and Redeemer and in Him I find strength, hope and the assurance of eternity in Heaven……

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    Just seeing this, Bren, but happy for you that you were able to see your mom and talk to her as often as you did. Also happy that her affairs were in good shape...I have been an executor three times now, and it makes a huge difference. Glad that all your memories can be dear ones!
    1415 days ago
    I know this is an old post, but it really touched me. May you always cherish the wonderful memories of your dear mother. emoticon
    1456 days ago
  • SUNRISE141
    Just now seeing this but GOD ANSWERED PRAYER for you my friend your mom didn't have to lay and linger what a blessing her life was ! I lost my mom 41 years ago in november and everyday i miss her but know if she hadn't got cancer she wouldn't have got saved very likely . She saw a light come after and let a death bed repentance . She was only 45 years old my dad was 46 when he died with cancer both drank and smoked most of their lives but my dad also got saved and talked to Jesus at the foot of his bed . GOD ANSWERS PRAYER ! Thank you for joining the team i appreciate you my friend !
    1507 days ago
    Awww I am just now seeing this. We lost my husband's mom just three years ago this month. We took care of her in her apartment while she was on hospice. We were actually home but just in the next room when she finally left, so we are thankful it was peaceful and quiet for her. She did NOT want to go back to the hospital.

    So I am glad that many of those afterwards issues were already planned and prepared for that time, as it does make things easier for you, and you don't have to worry "would she have wanted this??"

    I was just in Abilene area last year this month, as my dad was in a care home in Clyde and then when he got better, he moved back up north, as he did not want to be in the nursing home either. Are the bluebonnets still there or have they begun to fade for the season? They are so beautiful!!

    1523 days ago
    Yes Hard to loss a loved one God be with you and give you peace
    1627 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. I pray your heart will be comforted with all the memories. Praying for you
    1912 days ago
    Bren, I didn't know till today. I know you loved your Mommy, and did everything you could for her. I know you will miss her. Yes!!! God is your Rock!!! God bless you. Your Spark friend , Paulette

    1916 days ago
    I'm so sorry Brenda but I think its so nice the loving relationship you had with mommy but I have to say this made me cry emoticon and made me think that I need to start seeing my mom more...I am close to her but just don't seem to visit as often as I should and know that when she is gone I will fall apart...Thank you for the eye opener....Sending love ,hugs and prayers to you emoticon
    I also meant to say she is beautiful emoticon
    1923 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2013 10:40:22 PM
    It is such a blessing you had a close relationship with your mom. It is sad when there have been problems in a relationship and then a death.

    I think God wanted you to call right away more for your relief than for hers since He knew He was receiving her then. How good that she didn't lie there long!
    1923 days ago
  • ALIALI2013
    Reading this brought tears to my eyes in memory of my Dad's last day, and I think the sharing of the passing of both of our parents is a good thing. I know how you feel and I know both of us feel that the way our parents passed into the next door of our Father's mansion was a wonderful thing.

    They no longer have the restrictions the bodies they had here gave them, they are free and happy, filled with joy we can't even imagine. Able to laugh, to run, to do everything that the "cocoons" they lived in here would not allow. They've now turned into those beautiful butterflies and are just in the next room, watching over us, everything we do, waiting for us to join them.

    As I said during the releasing of balloons at the playground my Dad helped build for my nephew, before he was in a body that allowed him to be around a few people, his family, his friends, but when his spirit was released, he was released to all the world, and more, to soar and see all he could without limitations. That is the beauty of God....of death. And I will thank God every day for that.

    So be happy in what your Mom has now, as I am with my Dad. We are very lucky to have had them for the time we did, and now everyone has them, for the rest of eternity. We were blessed! emoticon
    1923 days ago
    Thank you all so much!
    I am truly blessed and your words continue to comfort me. I thank God for each of you...many have walked this road before me, and journey with me now. I treasure the memories I have of our time together. God is good and merciful...and He is with me each moment.
    1923 days ago
    Make God keep you and comfort you during this time of sorrow.

    1924 days ago
    How lucky you are to have had such a special relationship with your mom. Tears in my eyes reading this blog; so sorry for your loss but happy that your faith brings you comfort and strength.
    1924 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. I'm sending prayers of comfort for you and your family.
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    1924 days ago
    My deepest sympathy to you. emoticon
    1924 days ago
    So sorry for your loss, I know I miss my Mother everyday. Sending hugs to you.
    1924 days ago
    I am so sorry, I lost my mother in 1984 and there's not a day I don't think about her.
    You have my deepest sympathy
    1924 days ago
    emoticon What a blessing to have parted with loving words and deeds. No regrets! May our Lord's loving arms surround you.
    1924 days ago
    1924 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear of the death of your Mom. It sounds like she was in ill health. It takes a good while before you can talk about her. It took one year before I could talk about my Mom without tearing up. What you have now a good memories and that is what we must emphasize.
    1924 days ago
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