Wondering if I will sleep this year...kids and college choices.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

To send your child, not even your first born, to the opposite coast for college is tough. To send your child who has a potentially life threatening health condition to the opposite coast for college is tougher. To send your child who has a potentially life threatening health condition across the country to play soccer in college is toughest and perhaps requires more fortitude and faith than I have. I wonder if I will sleep this next year. I had assumed, wrongly I might add, that if he got into his first choice school, even if he could not play soccer, he would go there. Well he was accepted to his first choice school but by the time he received his acceptance letter, the coach had already filled his soccer roster. The school even offered him some substantial merit- based money! And he had always talked about going to school in California and in a sunny environ but now he will be going to school someplace where they actually get more rainfall than our home in the dreary Pacific Northwest! And to a school which does not have nearly the reputation nor academic standing as the other schools to which he was accepted. So I need time to adjust to this. It is beyond my understanding. I am having a heck of a time letting go. I sent my older son halfway across the country for school and to New Zealand for a six month study abroad. And I was/am ok with that. But now there is no direct flight to where my younger son will be going to school. It is well after midnight and I don't think sleep is anywhere near. I even took a Unisom. My mind is going full tilt. My younger son has no aspirations to play soccer professionally and these are all D3 schools so there is no monetary benefit to his playing soccer. Bottom line is that soccer is his passion and he does not want to play club soccer or inter murals in college. And his friends, all soccer players, have been recruited to play in college ( but at D-1 schools like Cornell etc.). I just need to be able to wrap my head around this. I need to let go. But IT IS SO DARN HARD!!! What if...What if....What if......?!? I wonder if I will sleep this year. I wonder......
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    emoticon emoticon I have a 9 month old and I already worry! I couldn't imagine what you are going through! Good luck hun!
    2194 days ago
    I have a son in college and I know where you are coming from. It's so hard to watch them make decisions you know are probably not the best. With my son, it was breaking up with his WONDERFUL girtfriend (who went to college somewhere else) to date a _______________ (trying and failing to find an appropriate word here!) who was at his school.

    Now he regrets it with his whole heart, but it's too late. Unfortuntely we can only pray for them and remember that everyone has to learn things the hard way (we did too!)
    2195 days ago
    emoticon and now for the truth

    NO you will NOT sleep (ever again) until he gets done with soccer,college and / or both. emoticon I know.
    Oldest one went to the Snow laden part of this country for college it was tough.
    Well we are a tough breed we mothers so i think you will st least have a nap every now and then.
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    2195 days ago
    Oh, dear. My heart goes out to you because I know how hard it is to watch them do what seems like the wrong thing. Unfortunately, sometimes---usually?---they have to learn the hard way..... Hang on, Mom!
    2195 days ago
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