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Today - still not doing very well

Monday, March 18, 2013

I have been sleeping for the past two days. When I'm not sleeping, I'm dropping everything on the floor - my food, my coffee, everything. Any I've been angry. Explosive angry. It's not good.

I think starting this therapy has opened a can of worms. I need to find a way to cope.

Since I woke up this afternoon, I've been dizzy. Not blacking out dizzy, but close. Foggy. I'm having a lot of trouble concentrating.

I'm really not doing well. Tonight I got Hubby to chop the veggies - I honestly am worried about cutting myself with the knife.

I am really having trouble staying grounded.

I have been eating a lot of Gluten Free breads and pastas for the past two days. I got a chance to go to the gluten free bakery in Regina on Saturday. I'm noticing how lousy I feel. It's so frustrating. I am craving breads again now.

I am thinking I need to focus on getting my nutrition back on track. Eating more freggies and cutting out breads and pastas again. Tonight supper is a step in the right direction - grilled tilapia, wild rice, steamed asparagus, and steamed broccoflower. There is enough for lunch tomorrow too.

I also have to start to move again. I know I can't run, but I need to start to try again. I will give myself a couple of days to get used to getting out the door and moving again before I expect my body to actually finish a run, but I need to get started. The half marathon is in 26 weeks.

I slept all day, so I'm thinking getting up an hour earlier might be possible tomorrow. I am going to try. Set my alarm earlier. Get dressed and get out the door. To make this work, I will need to lay out my clothes (both running and what I'm going to wear for the day), charge my GPS, Charge my MP3 player. Get the stuff to take Lulu together so I don't have to search. Fill up my water bottle. Get my lunch together tonight, so all I have to do is toss it into my lunch bag in the morning.

I made home made ice cream last night, so I have everything I need to make a smoothie in the morning. Maybe I'll do that too. Make it on my way out to work in the morning.

Sorry this is such a downer. I am really not in a good place. I need to focus on what I can do tonight to make this work better tomorrow. I have to have it all laid out - the less I need to think about it the better.

I hope you all are having a better start to your week.
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    I hope you're having a much better day today.
    1859 days ago
    It sounds to me like you're focusing on too much at once, it's not that you aren't grounded or focused. Break things down and focus on just one thing this week... preparing meals or running or whatever. Starting therapy is grueling so give yourself a break. Trying to accomplish everything at once is overwhelming and daunting. It's too easy to fall backwards and focus on the negatives.

    Which is easier for you control, the meals or the exercise? Take the easier one, plan it, write it down, prepare and follow through....but with baby steps. If you get out the door and walk, good for you, you got out the door. If it's the meals and you managed to prepare 2 of 3 meals properly that's great. You will be doing better than you were yesterday.

    Are you following a running program? SP has a bunch available for different levels.

    Hang in there. It's all about making healthy choices and living a healthy lifestyle...on choice at a time.

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    taking care of yourself is always a good thing. emoticon
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  • TERRY0217
    Sounds like you're having a pretty tough time right now...just try to remember, you have so many people that are here for you...Hopefully, tomorrow will be a much better day...
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  • JUSTME29
    It sounds like you have a great plan in place to make tomorrow a better day. Sometimes that's all you can hope for.
    1860 days ago
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