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Monday, March 18, 2013

And so it goes.

That has been my mantra lately, it seems.

I went through a marathon interviewing session last week. In fact, right now last week (it's a bit before noon), I was busily, earnestly, explaining how I'd do some sort of project that has details that I have already, mercifully, forgotten.

And if you read last week's blog, you'd know that I also pounded the table and didn't overeat french fries and tried to be knowledgeable, charming and sincere.

And it was not enough.

I was told on Thursday that they didn't feel there was a fit.



But that's the point of this blog.

I am not saddened by this. I'm still a bit peeved at all the time and energy that went into a marathon that got me nowhere. But I do all sorts of stuff that, seemingly, gets me nowhere. I walk around my neighborhood and, when I've been a gym member, I've walked on a treadmill, the very epitome of things that don't seem to get anywhere.

I take one less chip, or drink an extra ounce of water, or I walk around my car the long way around instead of the short one, and none of these things has any form of instant gratification or results or success whatsoever.

It all seems to, sometimes, take forever, eh? It can certainly feel futile at times.

Another drink of water? Another walk around the pond? Another rep? Another meal to track? Another measurement to be recorded? Another step on the scale?

I know, and I am not without sympathy. It can seem like such an uphill battle, in both directions.

But the way I have learned to view it is like a system of gates and checkpoints. To get to your destination, you have to go through these points. Those points are that extra rep, or that ounce of water, or those rejected french fries. There are stops, too, as your body readjusts, and you readjust. And sometimes there are setbacks or slips, for those are a part of it all as well. There is no reason why this is going to be an easy or fast or pain-free voyage. For it will not be. That is not what was promised you.

It's the same with this seemingly endless search for professional fulfillment. The marathon interview session was just an annoying checkpoint I had to go through. So is this day's tracking - that's a part of today's checkpoint for getting and staying healthy. So be it. And we will push onwards, for all of our goals, whatever they may be.

And so it goes.
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    i admire your determination and the way you put things into perspective.

    1894 days ago
    Another great song, Ms. Vonnegut!

    Raising a glass to the wisdom of tedium! :-)

    1894 days ago
    LOVE the song - one of my faves!

    But - that was a major interview process for them and for you - and it sucks that it didn't work out.

    As you say, it takes time, we keep on doing the work (or interview, or exercise, or watching what we eat) - and eventually we get the results we want.

    So - keep on keeping on, you'll find the perfect job at some point!
    1895 days ago
    That's it, Jes. Onward/forward. Nowhere else to go.
    1895 days ago
    I hate interviews - most of them seem to be such a monumental waste of time, both on the part of the interviewER and the interviewEE. So much of it consists of generic, banal questions that don't apply to a specific position anyway.

    Re the gates / checkpoints: I think of them as mileposts, but it amounts to the same idea (thinks me). And yes, sometimes it's just a case of ticking another box.

    1896 days ago
    Sorry to hear about the job, but you sound like you are taking it in stride. Keep moving past the checkpoints and towards your goals!
    1896 days ago
    They sure seem to make you jump thru hoops for nothing. it will be worth it when you find the right job.
    1896 days ago
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