Finally Feeling Good Again

Monday, March 18, 2013

I don't know if it's because I only had to work my full-time job yesterday or because I was off today or what, but I'm in a great mood for the first time in a long time! Life, it seems, is good.

Honestly it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders when I decided to quit my retail job. I'm proud of myself for giving it a genuine try and even more proud that I am able to acknowledge that my health and well-being is more important than my bank account. In the past I continued to slave on in misery because I put money before myself. Well, not anymore! Sure, things are going to be super tight and I'm going to be struggling financially again. I believe that I can still be happy and go out and do fun things, though, once I readjust my budget and get used to it.

My few weeks with the second job has also increased my affection and respect for my primary job. There have been times where I've gotten whiny and lazy and even called in sick because I didn't want to go - or I just hated the idea that I had to go for money's sake. Now, though, my perspective and commitment has been revitalized. Nothing like a crummy part-time job and a slew of 16 hour work days to make you appreciate what you had!

I also thing I did pretty darn good in the food department this week! Even though I ate out twice, I'm confident that I kept everything in balance and at the worst I went over by two hundred calories once. That's a huge improvement for me. Interests in healthy cooking has also revisited me, and I'm excited to repeat last week's habit of cooking five day's worth of food up front to have healthy and pre-portioned lunch and dinner options ready to go.

Oh, and I'm also happy to report that I'm getting interested in fitness again! It might be the warming whether, but once again I find myself wanting a membership to somewhere with a pool so I can swim! I love to swim and have no problem burning thousands of calories in one go. Last time I checked there was one gym nearby with pools, but the membership was about sixty bucks a month and way out of my price range (plus the pool closes at 8pm, which doesn't work with my work schedule!). There isn't a Y in my town, but I think there might be one or two closer to my work - I've never been to one before so I don't know what their rules or memberships are like, but I'm interested in finding out! It's weird that the idea of fitness excites me, as normally the idea grosses me out like no other.

Recently my mind is also overwhelmed with the possibilities of the future. I want to progress and succeed, but in so many areas! I've been drawing more; should I rekindle a past love of costume design, or look into 3D animation? Ever since I was little I wanted to be a writer, so should I take another stab at that? What about going back to school and getting my PhD? Haha but would I go back for rhetoric, or English, or Creative Writing or Costuming or something? Haha I haven't the faintest clue as to what I should do because the possibility seems so endless!

Even though it's nearly midnight, the night feels quite young for some reason, like I have more day than I actually do. Not sure if I should force myself to go to sleep now and wake up to a new day tomorrow or ride this emotional/creative high and see what things I could create or discover tonight. So many choices! Haha.

Please forgive me. I'm a bit high on life right now. Today was an oddly amazing day. On my friend's lunch break at work we ate and chatted, and then oddly enough the only person to respond to my query about seeing a museum exhibit was my ex-husband. Somehow we ended up going to see a Bernini exhibit in Fort Worth together and ended up having a good time. From what I could tell there really wasn't any awkwardness. We talked like we would have before we got romantic, enjoying the exhibit and talking about art and culture and theory and architecture. Afterward we had dinner with some friends and played a board game at a leisure bar drinking cider. There was no tension, which was a huge relief! It really does seem like we can not only be among friends together (I honestly think a lot of our friends have strayed from one or both of us because they're afraid of having us together and unconsciously "picked" from the two), but we can be friends just him and I. It's too early to tell, of course, and I'm sure the unpredictable winds of youth and ambition will sweep one or both of us to places unknown, but in the hear and now it's nice. He's the only person who will go to "boring" places like museums and art exhibitions with me anyway.

I suppose I'm going to end my evening with an indulgent bubble bath and a mini-facial, then prepare for a super-productive day tomorrow! On top of cooking and cleaning and whatnot, a high school friend who is into cosplay agreed to help me make a dress for when we go to Scarborough in April! I'm super excited to get my hands back into the game of design and construction - plus I've never dressed up for a Renaissance festival before, so that will be fun! If it is a success I'm sure I can post pictures if anyone is interested.

Well that's enough chattering out of me! I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and are ready to have a strong start to the week!
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    Reading this blog brought a huge smile to my face! I am so happy that you decided to quit your retail job, and that your exuberant optimism about life is just overflowing! I hope you stay on this path of exploring all the possibilities that your future has in store. All you need is the desire and motivation, and the rest will follow. I know that things will keep improving for you if you keep up that great attitude.Also, I'm happy that you are feeling enthusiastic about fitness again. I hope you find a gym soon that fits your schedule and budget. Swimming definitely seems like the best option for you, so I hope that you can start doing it regularly soon! :)
    1854 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    I am glad life is good! Keep moving forward!
    1856 days ago
    I'm proud of you for sticking with that job and being able to come to the conclusion that some things are worth more than that. It's an important personal revelation. I know what you mean about museums. I love them. Mots of my friends hate them. I have one friend in Austin that appreciates them, so when something comes up in the DFW area, she picks me up on the way through. We go see whatever it was we were interested in, then have dinner at Mr. Max's in Irving before going home. It's been a long time since we've done that, though!

    Caravaggio & The Magic Flute last fall, I think.

    Next time something comes up that we can't miss, I'll give you a heads up :)

    You may want to double check through work on this, but...

    Lots of companies offer discounts at gyms now! They've come to realize that what they end up pay for health insurance is lower if they can get healthier employees, so some of the more forward-thinking companies have partnered up with gym chains, etc, to offer discounts. Not everyone is doing it yet, but it's something to look into just in case you have those resources at your disposal through your company already and just don't know it.
    1859 days ago
    It sounds like the retail job experiment was a great way for you to figure out what you needed to make you happier, so it was definitely worth it!

    The Y's membership dues vary by location, but most of the time you can just get a center-specific membership (cheaper) or a regional one so you can visit different ones in a given area. They have an income-based scale when it comes to calculating membership, so I think it would be worth it for you to check it out. I think they need stuff like your last few paystubs in order to accommodate that. There is also a one-time joining fee that can also be adjusted if needed. I like the income-based membership fees, the fact they have a pool, and that they provide classes like Zumba and spinning as well. I also like that I can cancel my membership at any time...I'm not locked into a contract.
    1860 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/18/2013 3:59:08 PM
    1860 days ago
    Good to hear that you are feeling better about life. I think since you aren't working so much now you'll have a better perspective on things!

    1860 days ago
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