Fallen Angel: Determined by Mistakes

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Falling down hurts. Fallen Angel. Broken Angel. Too heavy for my wings to let me fly.

Remember this feeling. The spinning out of control. The falling. The need to control. The need to indulge. The pain it causes your heart. The pain it causes your mind.

The anxiety it creates.

I ate like garbage and knew it. I felt the need and said why not. I gave in. I gave in for over four days of eating garbage and putting crap in my body. I feel like crap. Broken out chin. Greasy face. Dull hair. Dull eyes.

When I walk I feel heavy. Not light and fit and happy. The anxiety and depression are edging in because of all the fake products, sugar and bread in my body. I feel it. I feel it and I hate it.

It is like I broke my own wings.

Remember this feeling. Remember this upset. Remember this pain. Remember to never go back.

I bought all healthy groceries for this week. Just baked chicken. I will cut up some veggies. I have it all planned out to ensure that I wont be making the same mistake again.

Pre plan and clean it up.
DETERMINED by mistakes.
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    I know that feeling, but have never been able to put it into words like you did. It's great that you took notice of what was happening and have made the choices to get back on track. Hang in there! emoticon
    1895 days ago
    You can do this!!
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    1895 days ago
    Have a fantastic day. your doing fine!
    1895 days ago
    It's a learning process. Be proud of yourself that you stopped and that you are making good choices now. Live for today and that good feeling of eating well today!

    1895 days ago
    That is a healthy choice!! To write it down and remember how it made you feel and learn from it. Good for you for buying nutritious foods for the week!! We are in control of our own lives, we just need to take charge and make the choices that are beneficial to us. Don't beat yourself up, pat yourself on the back for making the changes you needed to make to be the best you can be! emoticon
    1895 days ago
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