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Saturday, March 16, 2013

I’m sitting here trying to make myself feel positive. Just not feeling it today. My tailbone is still bothering me and I can’t get out and jog. (I actually had a dream about getting out for a run last night! Are you kidding me? Who is this person?) I’m sorting through the paperwork and phone calls trying to deal with the billing and workman’s comp. because it was not billed correctly (surprise, surprise). Someone backed into me in a parking lot this week and now I have that headache to sort through. My son has MORE projects that have not been appropriately modified that will consume our weekend (on top of my own schoolwork that I have do). This week hasn’t been that fun.

On top of that, I’m worrying about this 5K at the end of the month. I haven’t been able to train like I want. I do feel I’m getting better, but just when I think I’m feeling good, I lean or turn a certain way and see stars. I went out for a walk last weekend and walking up hills hurt. I was also getting winded easier than I had been. It’s been nearly 3 weeks since I’ve been out running.

I’m torn. I want to participate in this 5K, but I don’t want to do it if I’m going to do poorly and/or aggravate my injury. I also know a lot of people participating and I don’t want to be embarrassed. I know it’s not about that, but all the insecure feelings start coming back. This has me in a bit of a grumpy cat place, too, I think.

I guess I’m just in a crappy place. But I know it will pass. Thank goodness I’m 71 lbs lighter to have the energy to deal with it. Which at least brings me to some good news, I’m down 1.2 this week. The .6 from last week is gone and I’m at another new low. So, in spite of it all I’m still moving forward. That’s what it’s all about. Keep moving forward! Hmm…I’ve been saying that a lot these days. I may need to change the title on my sparkpage soon.

Enjoy the weekend, everyone. Happy St. Patty’s Day!
And here’s to a GREAT week ahead!
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    If you can't make this race don't worry about it there are plenty of 5ks coming up. Getting better is the main goal now! Hope next week is a little easier!!!
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    1859 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/18/2013 10:54:20 PM
  • LOTUS737
    Keep trucking! Things will get better! If your practice runs are hurting you, stay out of the 5k (or walk it instead). Best not to aggravate your injury! Keep up the great work!
    1861 days ago
    I didn't realize that you had moved into my neighborhood, "Crappy Place", in the "this sucks" school district. :) Congrats on the loss, it would be nice to post a loss each week, but 2 steps forward, 1 step back still moves you forward a little. I hope that tailbone hurries up and gets back to 100% so you can confidently participate in the 5k. If it's not in the cards though, find another one a month or 2 out and sign up and kill it!
    1862 days ago
  • BEWELL48
    I'm wicked tired!!! Working way too much and can say I am in a crappy place too. But guess we have lots to be grateful for as well.....you have had a great weight loss! I am going to DC tomorrow for a conference and will be able to see my son and his fiancé! I Am looking forward too it although my work phone and computer are coming with me!
    Do listen to your body regarding your injury! You certainly don't want to injury yourself more. There will be many more opportunities. If you are like me though......I just get so annoyed when things out of my control, control me! Just have to let go sometimes.....and it is hard!
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    1862 days ago
    I'm really glad you're listening to your body. If all else fails, can you get a case of the 'flu' the weekend of the race and just not go? I don't blame you for not wanting to go if there are lots of people you know. I highly doubt anyone will really care if you walk it, but more importantly, you might want to push yourself too hard--it could set you back further if you overdo it. Just think of it this way, if you take care of yourself now in the cold, crappy weather, you'll have lots of time in the nice, warm summer to enjoy running rather than nursing an injury! :)

    Right now, you feel winded easier, but I bet your body is so tense trying to avoid injury so you can't breathe properly and it takes a lot more effort to walk when your tense than relaxed--it's not because you're out of shape.

    Insurance companies, dr. offices, etc. are MISERABLE to work with--may the force be with you! :) emoticon
    1862 days ago
  • _BABE_
    If you are hurt don't run ...when is the last moment you can pull out? emoticon
    1862 days ago
    Don't be in a "crappy place"
    You have done amazing!
    I can't wait to be where you are!!!
    Do what you can & don't worry about the rest.
    The Bible tells us worry changes nothing which
    is certainly true.
    Relax, feel good about yourself & keep Sparking!
    Thanks for stopping by my page:)
    1862 days ago
    Hope things go better for you soon. emoticon
    1862 days ago
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