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Crying Melt-Down, But Staying Motivated

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Last week had been a tough one. I PUSHED myself to get to the gym on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. My cardio days of Tuesday and Thursday had me pushing myself to walk the neighborhood. I even did a Sunday evening walk to de-stress. This week, so far has been a repeat! I'm finally migraine free for two days, after 4 evenings of sheer pain. But the mind numbing exhaustion is driving me up the wall. My fluctuating blood pressure and racing heart is frustrating me to no end.

Yet I know I am doing the right thing in exercising and eating well. I'm letting some of the old-must-do's go to the way side in order to heal my body and get healthier. The problem is my biggest battle isn't necessarily the scale, but my mind.

Though I had a couple of good cries on the weekend arguing with myself. "Why I am trying so hard to stay on track when I'm not seeing results on the scale." I argued with my old will to give in: "it's not worth it--nothing is changing." Oh, but it is!

I am stronger than that! I know that I am not as tired as before (Tired, yes. As tired, no.) I feel stronger. I've been able to up my weights in strength training. I can go a longer on the treadmill or elliptical. And I took some measurements this morning and I've lost a total of another 3 inches.

To stay the coarse, I have been feeding this mind (my worst enemy) 'good food' in the form of Psalm 139, health articles, True Identity speaker Jennifer Brommet’s success stories, and 'The Spark'. Yesterday's reading in 'The Spark' just happened to be Chapter 3, where Chris talks about the 'tipping point' and sometimes it may be 3-4 months before the body accepts the changes being made. So, I am over half way there!

And today's SparkBlog is:

Perfect. And timely. (Isn't God good? He knows just what I need to read, what I need to hear, and when.) Just perfect timing.

So though some days are harder than others and I'm usually too hard on myself, the choices are getting easier!

Never. NEVER ever give up. Stay the coarse set before you.
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  • SWAZY33
    The fact that you are losing inches IS great progress! Now if only those darn scales would start behaving! lol
    and yes it's crazy the way the timing of things happen sometimes...i BELIEVE in divine intervention for sure!
    1910 days ago
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  • SAL1512
    Three inches!!! That is quite an accomplishment!
    1922 days ago
    emoticon on losing 3-inches! That is emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1922 days ago
  • D-ABBY
    emoticon I am with you; working to get my mind in line with this journey. God is faithful, and I am working to be faithful too. Keep up the good work. We will reach our destination is we faint not in the way. HUGS!
    1922 days ago
    I understand where you are. It is frustrating to work so hard and the scale shows nothing. The added strength and endurance, and the better fitting clothes are such great reminders that we are making progress. emoticon emoticon
    1923 days ago
    Hang in there. It may take some time, but your good work will be rewarded.
    1923 days ago
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