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And Depression Hits Us Once Again...but the Odds are in MY FAVOR.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Tuesday and Wednesday sucked - OUT LOUD. I couldn't sleep Monday night due to the stomach blockage, so I stayed home on Tuesday. Was able to eat by lunchtime, but boy howdy - depression came over me like a STIFLING BLANKET. Got really weepy and tired and sad and just was miserable. It was still there yesterday so I stayed home again (stupidest thing to do during times like that - isolation just makes it worse). So I ate crap and felt like crap and zoned out with crap. CRAP.

I got up and came to work today, but now I have some SEVERE pain in my lower right back that I can now feel in my belly button area. Thinking it's kidneys? Appendix? More of the depression? (And yes, depression CAN cause physical pain.) But I'm here... that's the good news.

Other good news? I'M GOING TO BE OK. i'M GOING TO BE BACK ON TRACK. I have learned that NO AMOUNT OF LIFE'S CIRCUMSTANCES can keep me from my appointed goal of taking care of myself. Do I get depressed sometimes? YEP. Do I eat crap sometimes? YEP. Do I skip exercise sometimes? YEP. But NINETY PERCENT OF THE TIME, I AM ON TRACK. Which means the odds are in my favor - and I'm GOING TO WIN.

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    Love your perspective. We sometimes forget that one or two bad days - or months - shouldn't keep us from continuing on.
    1861 days ago
    Some days the depression certainly wins - but you are stronger than it will ever be! Feel it and then take that blanket off and throw it aside. Because I know you can.

    Love you girlie!


    ps I get chest pain with depression, along with migraines and other aches and pains. But if it doesn't go away shortly, definitely see your doc! emoticon
    1862 days ago
  • CAROLJ35
    Check out that pain!!! Friend of ours just had ruptured appendix and is lucky to be alive. Only an MRI showed the problem.
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    1864 days ago
    At least you're back on the correct path today :) We all have our moments of weakness, the key is to get through them as quickly as we can and get back to normal! That pain you mention may be a kidney stone... hope not, bit it's a possibility. Hopefully you just slept wrong or twisted awkwardly and pulled a small muscle.
    1864 days ago
    your honesty always impresses the hell out of me. You are so open about it all. Its a great view of yourself. We all have our ups and downs and we need to be honest about it and look at it and see where or what we could do differently. I see that you are doing that which is so AWESOME!!! You noticed that isolation was not good for you on top of it all.
    I hope you are feeling better as the day progresses. Have you ever had your gall bladder checked?
    1864 days ago
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    Some sunshine to brighten your day!
    1864 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/14/2013 8:40:15 AM
  • 1935MARY
    Everybody gets depress at times, but instead of letting it rule you, you need to turn it around and make it positive, you may have kidney stone or something, if pain persist have it checked out. The good thing if you get of track ,you don't quit. You pick yourself up and get back to business . Have a good day.
    1864 days ago
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    1864 days ago
    Stay motivated!
    1864 days ago
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