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Thursday, March 14, 2013

Had a tough day yesterday. Babysat for 4 kids aged 10 and under. Had a control struggle with the oldest, and came close to losing it when he told me that I can't tell him what to do because I'm not the boss of him. (Yeah, my teenager used to say that, too, but it's somehow different when it comes from another person's child, especially a kid you thought you had a good friendship with!) I ended up sending him to his room for quiet contemplation while I stayed with the rest of the kids. But it sort of escalated from there, with him refusing to stay in his room, and resulted in the rest of the kids getting agitated.

Felt horrible when I got home, mainly because I felt I should have handled it better. I called my hubby and asked him to bring home 1 cupcake. My reasoning behind this is that I could eat one, make myself feel better, yet not be tempted by multiple servings on anything. Well, he brought home a package of cookies.

So I ate 10 Nutter Butter cookies...

but they didn't make me feel better. It's now the next morning, and I still don't feel better. I still feel like I failed this kid somehow, and I'm worried about future friendship issues with him. Many people will say that kids bounce back quick, but my own younger son can remember every single parenting flaw I had.

I guess this means that I will have to face up to my feelings. Hiding behind an overload of sugar doesn't help anymore. I've gotten too smart for that. But I've got to say that facing my feelings is much harder than eating, and it hurts more...
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    2860 days ago
  • BECCA315
    I did end up calling the mom and talking to her, explaining why I did what I did. She is a bit shocked that her child acted that way for a sitter. She has been having issues with him not wanting to do his homework, which is really what the problem was yesterday. I told her I just wanted to make sure that WE are still friends, and that this won't come between us. I did walk up and down the chip & cookie aisles at the store this afternoon, but kept telling myself that junk food won't make me feel better.

    2866 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    Becca I love that you were able to blog about this and realize that the cookies didn't help. Why oh why can these young kids get to us so easily. You did he right thing sending him to,his room but you could not do much else. So forget about it and move on!!!
    2866 days ago
    I can't add much new to the already written comments, but I can give you a hug and a smile.

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    2866 days ago
  • SAASHA17
    emoticon i know the feeling..had the same issue with my nephew..but trust me he will be fine...

    take care
    2866 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Each day brings new challenges; sometimes old challenges. How we deal with them determines what kind of day we will have. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    2866 days ago
    It is easy to think you were at fault.....but there could be a whole slew of things going on here that have nothing to do with you.

    Maybe a calm, honest chat with mom would be good. As in, it seems like Tommy had a really hard day yesterday. Is he struggling with something? He was angry and we had a tough time. Is there something that might help me make it go better next time?

    And just log the cookies and move on. You can't Un-eat them, and you have already worked through the "why I ate them" part.

    have a better day
    2866 days ago
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