Happy hump day!
I am in week three of my stress-buster challenge. I’ve come a long way dealing with stress over the years but many times it still overcomes me. So I’m really working on it now.
Workouts really help! I try to get in two 15-minute walking breaks every day at work. It’s good to get away from the desk, clear my head and get a little refreshed. A good cardio and strength training workout really helps blow off pent-up steam!
This week I am working on choosing to be an optimist. That’s a lot harder than it sounds but I believe I can do this. I have more than one family member going through a difficult time right now and this is where I struggle but I’m really working on it. Normally right now, I would be wallowing. I would stop working out, shut down, watch TV and blame myself even though none of it has anything to do with me.
I read somewhere,” it’s not a bad day; there was a bad moment that you held on to all day”. I can’t remember the exact phrase but that was the idea. Looking back over the years I can remember being so overly dramatic about what a horrible time I was going through and thinking life was too unfair.
No question life was tough at that time; I have gone through some crap in my day. When I really think about it though, I can remember bright spots during that time as well. There were positive moments that I wish I had tuned into instead of wallowing in the bad times. I didn’t have to be so miserable. I didn’t have to let negative moments consume me but I did. I wish I could have chosen to turn away from negative influences.
But, what’s done is done. I cannot go back and fix anything, relive a past moment differently or change a bad decision I made. I know that is pointless. I know I must move forward every day being the best person I can possibly be now, take care of myself and support those I love, not berate myself for not being able to fix everything. I cannot hold on to a bad moment (or two or three) and tell everyone that I had a horrible day.
I’m running my second 5K on Saturday. Last year for this race, it was sunny and 70. This Saturday’s forecast… not so much. I’m fairly new to running and have never done a race in chilly weather. I’ve really been working on improving my strength and endurance over the past four months. I really have to keep reminding myself how far I have come. I still feel like the lazy couch potato I have been for many years and that’s just not true anymore! Only once in a while.
I was grumpy the other night watching the weather report. I went on and on about how horrible this is. I want it to be like last year, I’m too old for this. I immediately made myself shut up and told myself that it will still be a good day. I ran twice last week in chilly, damp weather and it wasn’t so bad after the first five minutes. I even improved my time with each run so I will dress right, I will be out there with everyone else who loves to run and my daughter is doing it with me. I will be thankful that I am capable of running and that no matter what my time is on Saturday, it will be a great accomplishment for me!
It’s exhausting being me.
But I'm worth it!