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Tap, Tap, Do Over!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Well...I was flying high on Saturday. For the first time in a really long time, I felt happy. I have a new place to move to next week and although I love my apartment, the safety issue is a bit too much. I am moving to a safer neighborhood. And, I had received a job offer, but declined as the money wasn't very good but more importantly, it wasn't a fit for me. And...I had finished three rounds of interviews for another place and was offered a position (with great growth potential), we had discussed money already and I was just waiting for the offer letter, which was supposed to be emailed yesterday.

Well, yesterday rolled around and bumpkiss. So, without realizing it...what did I do? Eat. I tracked every last bit, but it was not pretty. So this morning, I got up with a renewed sense of self and thought I would do good. Well around 3p today, I got the emailed offer letter and I was offered $10k less than was discussed and no benefits.

I have been looking for almost 2 years now and this seems to keep happening. I was disappointed. I came home. I wasn't really hungry...but I made dinner. I had gluten free Quinoa pasta, sauce with zucchini. Well, I ended up eating 6oz of the Quinoa pasta, which is 3 servings! For those of you not familiar, 2 oz of Quinoa past is 210 calories, so in 6 oz I ate over 600 calories! Needless to say, I blew my day. However, I stopped right after that even though there was more. I realized what I was doing and made myself go and take a hot shower.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will start the process all over again. I am still feeling a little defeated today. It has been a rough go. Saturday seemed like there was so much potential and it all just seemed to come crashing down at once. But, I am not going to let myself dwell on the negative.

I will find another job at a place that is right for me, that will pay me at least what I am making now or more. I will have a new place where I feel safe walking from my car to my apartment and I will find peace and happens.

As for tonight, it is Day 2 of the Deepak Chopra & Oprah 21-Day Meditation Challenge. So, I will read and meditate before bed to CTRL+Alt+Delete myself for a fresh start in the morning.
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    ugh job searching is such a pain!! I know what you are going through! Just dust this dissappointment off and on to the next one! Don't be too hard on yourself though with the eating. We all have these slips!
    1865 days ago
    I'm really sorry to hear about your job search struggles, and it's always disappointing to have a company tell you one thing and then actually offer another. However, if you think everything else is a good match, why don't you call them on this and make a counteroffer? The first offer is just that: the FIRST. It's a starting point. See if they'll come up to a figure that you're happy with.

    And if it doesn't work out, I think you've got the right mindset - you'll end up where you're supposed to be!

    Good luck!

    1865 days ago
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