Well...I was flying high on Saturday. For the first time in a really long time, I felt happy. I have a new place to move to next week and although I love my apartment, the safety issue is a bit too much. I am moving to a safer neighborhood. And, I had received a job offer, but declined as the money wasn't very good but more importantly, it wasn't a fit for me. And...I had finished three rounds of interviews for another place and was offered a position (with great growth potential), we had discussed money already and I was just waiting for the offer letter, which was supposed to be emailed yesterday.
Well, yesterday rolled around and bumpkiss. So, without realizing it...what did I do? Eat. I tracked every last bit, but it was not pretty. So this morning, I got up with a renewed sense of self and thought I would do good. Well around 3p today, I got the emailed offer letter and I was offered $10k less than was discussed and no benefits.
I have been looking for almost 2 years now and this seems to keep happening. I was disappointed. I came home. I wasn't really hungry...but I made dinner. I had gluten free Quinoa pasta, sauce with zucchini. Well, I ended up eating 6oz of the Quinoa pasta, which is 3 servings! For those of you not familiar, 2 oz of Quinoa past is 210 calories, so in 6 oz I ate over 600 calories! Needless to say, I blew my day. However, I stopped right after that even though there was more. I realized what I was doing and made myself go and take a hot shower.
Tomorrow is a new day and I will start the process all over again. I am still feeling a little defeated today. It has been a rough go. Saturday seemed like there was so much potential and it all just seemed to come crashing down at once. But, I am not going to let myself dwell on the negative.
I will find another job at a place that is right for me, that will pay me at least what I am making now or more. I will have a new place where I feel safe walking from my car to my apartment and I will find peace and happens.
As for tonight, it is Day 2 of the Deepak Chopra & Oprah 21-Day Meditation Challenge. So, I will read and meditate before bed to CTRL+Alt+Delete myself for a fresh start in the morning.