My New Internal Dialogue is Manifesting Outwardly
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I am realizing that before I began my weight loss journey, the internal dialogue in my head was telling me that losing the weight was impossible, which was a downer. My motivation was next to nil and I didn't put any effort into my looks. At one time, I was a bit of a looker. I have lost weight twice before. I even managed to keep it off successfully for some years until PCOS/Insulin Resistance decided to reside with me. I felt like since my metabolic deck is stacked against me, it was just to much to deal with, and thus I became a human doing. I looked horrible, so why bother. I took care of the kids and homemaking responsibilities and beyond that, there was no energy for anything more.
Until I decided that I was frantic and something absolutely had to change. I've decided that I want to live life and have energy like everyone else. Why not spontaneously go do something the kids want to do? What about feeling okay when they ask to go to the pool rather than inwardly cringing and putting it off?
As a matter of fact, beginning this journey with SparkPeople is having other pleasant side effects. Making time to be here everyday is giving me some much needed me time. Not only have I begun getting my meals organized, my home is following suit. Principles that work for getting healthier apply equally well to home organization. Who doesn't have time for a 15 minute declutter every day? The result is remarkable in such a short amount of time too. It has also turned cleaning into a bit of a game for my daughter. We set the timer and race to get as much done as possible before the timer goes off. Many times, she is motivated to continue, but we don't have to do more if we don't want to. Noticing that such quick results with our home are transpiring, and that we have healthy meals ready on time and that we're already feeling better with our exercise has begun a fun, upward spiral.
And it all started by changing my internal dialogue.