gained back 79lbs so ashamed :(

Sunday, March 10, 2013

well that just about says it all...really mad at myself but I am determined to get back on track emoticon
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    2771 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/21/2013 6:28:17 PM
    You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of !! Every single member of spark people has gone through the same thing. We're all experts at gaining, losing and regaining the weight over the years. Well, that was the past. You can't change the past, but you CAN influence and change the future.

    As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the positive things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.

    Take baby steps literally and figuratively !!

    2771 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12869499
    Your little monster picture is so cute. Sorry to hear about your gain -- but it's good that you are back! You can do it. Today is a brand new day-- it doesn't matter how you got here, just where you decide to go from here.

    PS. I love that water hole backdrop photo -- what a fun place that would be to go swimming!
    2771 days ago
    i love your little monster guy- how often I feel just like that. How hard it is to express all the frustration and other "bad" emotions. How often have I stood in the same place you are now. Too many times to count. So I keep in mind that starting again is so important as it is way to success. Hang in there! Liza
    2781 days ago
  • WILLOW49
    So glad you are back with us :) I missed you! The past is just that. Leave it there and move forward!
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    2781 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    Ya know, we all BEEN THERE DONE THAT!

    That's why you are here. We love having you and we welcome
    you to start over ANYTIME you need to .

    Perfection is NOT the name of the game. It's a journey and we
    are on it together, to help each other.

    SO, jump right back on were together in this!
    2781 days ago
  • JESSICA_0029
    emoticon all so much it means the world to me emoticon
    2781 days ago
    I know it's the last thing you want to hear right now, but I want to celebrate the fact that you lost it in the first place. Gaining it back only means you're human. It's so hard to find something to replace the role we've given to food. I know that because I struggle with it every minute of every day.

    I am sending you a cyber hug right now, so close your eyes and feel it, and know you are NOT ALONE.

    You are a superstar for not giving up. No one knows how strong we really are unless they are going through this too.

    I'm here. Reach out.

    2781 days ago
    I am so so happy that you are back. YOU ARE BACK! Which means you have not given up, which means you should not feel any sense of failure. Did you know that I'm actually heavier now than when I started Spark people?!?! Well, it's the truth. In the past 4 years, I've gained close to 50 pounds. BUT, I have come so far from where I was when I began this Life Long journey to healthy living. And I know you have made positive changes in your life too...the weight is only part of this puzzle. Please read my 4 year sparkversary may find you have more to celebrate than you thought.
    2782 days ago
  • .DUSTY.
    As someone who's been on SparkPeople for years and a Team Leader I can tell you no one is really going to notice. There's a lot of turn-over here and new members all the time.

    The important thing is you're back in the game. Remember you're NOT alone!
    2782 days ago
    You did it before, you know you can do it again!
    2782 days ago
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  • JOYOUS1917
    Do not beat yourself up. Life happens. Just start tracking everything....even if your calories go over....eventually your brain will get on board to help you...Lots of mixed greens, juicing veges helps, I do a cup of frozen fruit w/water in a blender plus stevia, I love omelettes first thing. I also cannot do grains except for Ezekiel Bread. I do soups a lot. Reward yourself for starting...a flower, a vision board, a hot bath....reward yourself even if you fail for determining to start over....ALWAYS, ALWAYS BE POSITIVE.....TOWARD YOURSELF. emoticon emoticon
    Yep, you are a baby chick and you are emerging into the beautiful loved person you already are!
    2782 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/10/2013 5:05:03 PM
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    2782 days ago
    Let go of the anger, guilt, and frustration. Otherwise, you'll end up using it as an excuse to keep yourself down. Also, beating yourself up a lot is undoubtedly what got you here in the first place. Instead, understand that the part of you that has seemed to be "out of control" has been trying to protect you in its own distorted way. That part of you has been trying to distract you from even more painful thoughts. Every time you crave food or want to binge, stop for a few moments and think about what is really bothering you. It would be great if you could write it down too. For now you don't need to do anything about it. Just truly notice.

    Another thing to do before putting ANY food or beverage in to your mouth is to say to yourself "I choose to eat/drink" this. It's an important reminder that you are always in charge of what goes into your body.

    I wish you the best!
    2782 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8574152
    emoticon back Jessica! It's wonderful to see you back with us again...and please don't feel awkward about regaining some of the weight you've lost. You have still made SO much progress, and you know what it takes to lose that weight. You can do it again emoticon Gee, if I told you how many times I gained and lost weight before - at age 60 - I finally got to my current weight, you'd be dizzy and lose count somewhere along the line. In fact, I'd hazard the guess that MOST of us here have joined and rejoined too many times to count. If I saw a list of all the screen names I've had on Spark over the years, I'm sure I'd just faint!

    Just the fact that you did it once tells me you can do it again. And I've always found spring a great time for new beginnings... all the best in your quest to be on the path toward progress once again! - Susan
    2782 days ago
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