Paleo Challenge - Day 20

Saturday, March 09, 2013

It's day 20 and yesterday I had my first intentional slip-up. No I didn't give in to my insane craving for red velvet cake nor did I break down and get an oreo McFlurry.... no I got the stomach flu. Every time I drank water my stomach would spasm and I got sick all over again. I was afraid my supply of breastmilk was going to disappear after two days of no food and barely any fluids so i finally broke down and drank some gatorade and ginger ale. I was afraid drinking it was going to make me want the stuff again but I honestly couldn't wait to be done with it. My mouth tasted nasty. I am feeling the effects of some sugar withdrawal again today. After just one gatorade and one ginger ale. Isn't that crazy?

I was laying in bed last night watching my recorded episodes of biggest loser and the thought occurred to me that this would be so easy to do if I had never put an oreo in my mouth. If I had no idea what a delicious explosion of heaven a cupcake could be, I could just snub the little ball of poison. If I hadn't spent my life falling in love with hot pockets/b.l.t.s/fried balogna sandwiches, etc... I wouldn't have to sit here mourning the loss of them. Pizza. OMG pizza.... Wouldn't it just be so much easier if all of these things didn't exist? I wish...

10 days to go. Two days after my challenge ends will be my birthday. I'm trying to decide if I'm going to let myself go to my favorite little cafe and get one of those small red velvet cupcakes that they make oh so perfectly or if I'm going to try to find a way to treat myself without bread/sugar and without feeling cheated and deprived. Red. Velvet. Gosh, I dunno. The more I write about it the more I feel myself talking myself into a whole red velvet cake. God help me.

Moving right along....
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    I was going to comment but Inspirational3 summed it all up. We all go through these tough times, you can do it! God is with you. Be strong! Be well! Be blessed! emoticon emoticon
    1904 days ago
    How easy it is for us to sabotage all our hard work.... if you want another perspective here it is.

    Question yourself if that cupcake is worth giving up all those dreams and goals that will bring you not only a healthier life but the body and confidence and social acceptance we all crave. Also, have you relly thought about rewarding yourself on your birthday and other times with something other than food. Maybe you can reward yourself with something that will show off all your hard work thus far.

    I find when my resolve weakens I go to the clothes store and try them on, look in the mirror which reminds me I am far from where I want to be. Maybe you can buy something you want to look terrific in and hang it in a place that is in front of your face a lot. Now when you want something like that cupcake or anything else think if the trade off is worth it to your emotional happiness, physical health or apprearance at your next public appearance like party, wedding, event with people you like being with.

    Good Luck and I wish your Birthday to be the best with or without the cupcake. Maybe you will possibly entertain the thought that giving up that cupcake or switching to a treat you love but is also healthier is really giving yourself the greatest gift you can give yourself.

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    1905 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/9/2013 6:23:42 PM
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