A hodgepodge of my many emotions!

Saturday, March 09, 2013

Today's Blog is a hodgepodge of the many emotions that I have felt this week! While I have had far more positive than negative, there will be some negative come through! Sure there are some that I want to say are OK or that they are because of cancer/chemo....neither of these are me, fair nor do they accomplish anything except to foster something that I don’t want to be!

Here are my thoughts!

My cats curled up, purring against my ear and heart...

A husband who has taken care of me....

I have noticed how I can become someone else and cast ugly words in that direction, only to feel the shame when I can't undo the ugly!

SP friends have supported, passed on hugs, shared kind words and made the whole process bearable...

My NC calls that simply say that I am there with you while staying on the phone with me for hours..

Of making plans for the future and wondering how far I have yet to travel!

Realizing that there is so much more that I want to do without fear or questioning that there is a enough time!

Walking into my oncology clinic to daily smiles that that talk to me in a special way!

That this time I can eat! And most important...I want to! I like this because it is the gauge my family uses to see if I am telling them the truth! (Still have to use plastic silverware)

Wondering just when I will have to give up my “cute hair” but knowing that I won't have to fuss with hair so my head is always clean!!!!

Most important is the smile that has been given so freely!

I Can

Cancer is something that we all fear, 
I'm not alone, love is near. 
It is very difficult to cope, 
My strongest therapy is our hope.
I have the strength to defeat, 
From my head to my feet. 
Stick with it, never surrender, 
By my side, SP friends are my defender.
Deep inside I sense your power, 
Your blessings you like to shower. 
I am so proud of all that you do, 
We know you can, we love you!

Original @ (l Made 1st person as this is how I have felt!)

Wonderful Friend

You're a truly wonderful friend,
A short message I would like to send. 
Over time, I did observe, 
In this life, many things you deserve.
I'm not simply trying to flatter,
Mistakes from the past don't really matter. 
You just need to look ahead,
Love from your heart, continue to spread.
I know everything will be alright,
Since we're a team in this fight.
So I remember, I'm not alone, 
Right next to me there's my mental clone.

Original @ (l Made 1st person as this is how I have felt!)

And foremost I want to add that I know what cancer and chemo cannot do!

Cancer is so limited...

It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot eat away peace.
It cannot destroy confidence.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot shut out memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot reduce eternal life.
It cannot quench the Spirit.

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    What a inspiration you are, I hope that God wraps you in the palm of his hand and washes all your ailments away with his grace...thanks for the blog, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1867 days ago
    beautiful thanks for sharing hugs & prayers
    1867 days ago
    It is really is another wonderful blog! Thanks for sharing!
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    1868 days ago
    No matter how hard we try we are not perfect Its Okay to make a few opes Our love and care is with you God is with you One day we will meat in heaven No more pain hardship or tears Till then the love care peace of God be with you Do not be afraid to express your fear and pain You are never alone You can even tell them To God I talk to him He is with us trough all we go trough.He loves you.
    1868 days ago
    Reading your blog brought tears to my eyes and it also inspired me. I have thought about you all week and if you feel like talking (I don't know how you feel physically), you can call me and if I am not home, I will call you back. Or we can write back and forth here too.

    Thanks for sharing from the bottom of your heart and have an enjoyable weekend with John and your pets. Love, Chelsea emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1868 days ago
  • MOMMY445
    what a wonderful blog! thanks for sharing and have a terrific day!
    1868 days ago
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